CAAAMILLE (:

2007-03-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

because i prefer livejournal over this, for now. ---> :O

2007-03-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

im just hoping i didnt make the wrong decision t stay in cj, cause im regretting a little now. and im going t die soon, cause ive been moaning inside of me :O today was the first day of school, and the last day of orientation ): anyway there's going t be this cool ceremony tmr, where the seniors will put on collar pins they had t buy for their junior class juniors. i wnt someone cool (:

i hate the new class number, location, and we dnt have ~~retainees or~~ ij girls ): tmr ill see a sea of blue. oh boy, say hello t camille the toiletcleaner/busdriver/factoryworker :O zixiang showed us some moves today for winning most of the games, wait for my turn haa.

(: eulb wen eht mi

tonight ive fallen, and i cant get up. i need your loving hands t come and pick me up. and every night, i miss you.

2007-03-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

why one week only ):

now i cant wait for the june holidays! anyway my one week has been quite greaaat! but i havent met everyone i havent seen for very long! dawndianewoo (next week ahh), yo (my shopping and topshop partner), germs (luckily youre in cj now), penny (our plan on thursday failed), you and many more. at least we've higher chances of seeing each other in our new ugly uniform! and my mother's coming back from US tonight, my goodies (:

stjames was not :O but the company was not bad, and i made a lot of new friends. i swear sonia teresa and the rest are bad influences, they kept using bad words like f, cb, lj. and my friend told me, someone got stabbed by three person outside the club, pain :O shisha-ed after tht with sophie sonia and daryl :O~ (~ is the smoke) i searched for the effects of shisha, its either worst than smoking or better. i dnt wnt t die, yet! %*^()#@%()#&%()^

then basically the rest of the holidays were spent like tht and like this. eilynn's house is :OOOO BIIGGG. she even has CCTVs in her house t check on ppl :O and we're planning t go over next week after school, before she leaves for aust, t swim and play hide and seek and mayb sleepover! and sometimes i wonder why do people take pictures? t post them on friendster/blog, for memories or self pleasure (:O)? whtever, i still havent received pics from fiona and angelica!

while everyone are getting so tensed bout tmr, when they'll be wearing their new uniform, worrying tht ppl will think they look weird, nerdy or ugly in it. cj is different, we've one more day of orientation! dragonboating here i come :D

6th march, the day of posting

hannibal rising / pastamania with 1T30 (:

there was a failed attempt at the escalator then the man went up with us, t help us take another! omg, thank you man (:

8th march, finale night
sam, camille, meiryl, anne before PA
we're enkaaa
when we were bored, with the fan (: im wolverine, with two claws.
because the finale night wasnt as fun as the first intake's.with the ig20 girls except anne (:
the colourpencil fiona gave, so sweeet (: but i dnt like purple.
camille anne fiona meiryl sam (and fiona still owes me pics of our whole ig %&*@*(#)
9th march, rockafella (: im too lazy t put the other pics, but this is the nicest, check out the hands :O

12th march, music&lyrics with bel
omg, toysrus had this haircut thing for kids :O
13th march, rompII at stjames
went t school t change my uniform, but the stupid auntie cheated my feelings. balls. went t meet esh t shop, then met rachelk t shop again (: then left for sophie's house t meet her and cheryl!sophie and her new camerawhile waiting for sophie t argue finish with her friend over the tickets at bk with almost everyonethe rompII tickets (: stjames power house (: (angelica still has some photos) the cool poppers which teresa and i wnted t dance with, hahaha.
and look at the red tie guy, he's my facil for my new class :Ozest fourrr, stephyeo sandra neh tsu (:
sandra looks cool,

they look cool, except neh who spoilt the pic (as usual haha) interval, where valentina was called upon and she won :D
the long queue! (a warning for all, dnt be so cheapskate next time)the secret tht lies between cheryl sophie and i :Dangeline's cool shadesthe shisha place, with lousy fooodthe shisha, where thousand and thirteen ppl placed their mouth on it and you never knw wht diseases they had or have :O i cant believe i used it :OOOOOO:O~~~~~~~~sophie the pro (after seeing a man doing until so pro)14th march
stayedover at sophie's house and we only reached her home at seven :O and hurr, i couldnt wake up for training

15th march
they are damn pro, and they're only pri/sec school! but nvm bout tht, look at tht small boy with black socks and yellowshoes! i also wnt!
went home, then met rachelkshe borrowed books from the library :O the toileettt16th march, sentosa with 1T30 (:
you can tell whose extraemoooo kids
1T30, without those tht couldnt come ):
we're ready for the luge ride
three people, three expressions
thirteen and fourteen (:
stmargs and anderson (: on the ride uppppp
behind us
look how highhhh, and nice islands!
hahaha, someone was tensed and nervous :O
a picture taken of a photo (sentosa was so smart t try t cheat our money with one of their cameras on the way up, but we're smarter t save tendollars)let the race beginnn (its lousier than nz's, cause it was only one/two min ride)shulan's back :D

while waiting for the monorail! sentosa is like upgraded!

shulan's second date
with topman's cap (:
we look like wizards in those cap
17th march, nineone at eilynn's house for bbq

the early birds and ghosts
sherry's idea, so hoooottmufffin :Dphebe and i camwhoring in the toiletwhile eilynn went t get the others, we explored her HUGGGEE househer swimming poool (and i have a bruise while running back there t take a successful pic)one block of her houseand the other with muffin inside

looking down from the upstairs glass bridge
camille phebe sherryphebecamillesherry

themmm
we look like we're in some resort
the surfferrrs (: (sherry's so greedy)
pythonnsss, siiii (stomp the yard)
standing on the thin glass

kickkk
the emo kids, t die or notphebe and wafflethe yellow plates :Dsherry the antisocial talking t her pikamon :D

i love her bro's lamp :D nineone without germs ):and then sherry left for mdmwongin house fondue :O while enjoying in her second living room

swimswimswim (: and i brought over the net t play waterpolo :D

while the other four were playing inside

then sarah and lydia left, so we dragged fessie down

she couldnt swim, so we had t move t the shallow side (her deep is really deep, its like 1.8?)

we can catch :D

then we tried flying in the air

its jane! hahaha

phebe always taking the float ):

fessie always staying there

and no, i wasnt naked, the aircon was on :O

im going t miss all of them ): especially eilynn since she's going aust! we must meet next week t play and swim again, better is if we can stayover :D

i remember the days, we spent together were not enough. and it used to feel like dreaming, except we always woke up. one, she makes me feel not too much like anything. that’s three times more than ive ever felt before. 1 AM and im too sucked in. cause its three days later, i cant stop thinking about you

2007-03-13T12:57:00.000+08:00

ive t keep my mouth open, t prepare for all the surprises stjames will give me later :O and i dislike clubbing for one fact, other than sick guys and banglas, it reminds me of you ~~and how i never got t see you dance.~~ omg, im going t check out their dragonfly (the epitome of mandarin pop) :O oh boy, im peeling! means not tan anymore ):

my five over months awaited stjames, here i come :O

we're having having fun, but something tells me i miss someone.

2007-03-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

rockafella was, a blast! all the bands tht performed were cooooool! i feel like going t gigs instead of clubs now (but it'll fade) hahaha. anyway, the holidays are here! a great way t catch up with everyone before i really balance between studying, and playing. but ive trainings during the holiday ): one is the day after rompe2 somemore! %*^(@)*(#@ support my juniors, zest four, during rompe2 so ill get my treat from stephyeo (:

and the second intake is more nerdy and ... five hundred from the first intake stayed on. i wnt back the other four hundred ppl tht left!

encore dudes (:

2007-03-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

im still feeling *%@($^(@%$@)(# at this late night. but gta is a good way t destress and uhh, vent my emotions? banging shooting kicking sawing the prostitutes gangs and police! hahaha. i love gta! and jae posting is soooon, but whtever. ill let fate decide! and trish is damn horny when she plays gta! 'let the sex begin' hahaha.

ive been happy, but as quickly as it started, it disappeared and faded. it finally dawned upon me that, i havent found the exact sole reason t be happy from within. at least today, i finally attained _ (:

i wnt a ny cap! looks cool sounds cool! and brown is my next yellow (:

2007-03-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

michelletan came back today! OMG SO SHOCKING (: (she wnted t shock us) hahaha. the class was quite weird today, it was as if we were mourning for the separation, but actually we werent. we walked aimlessly from here t there around. at least im thankful for the fact tht we go out as one! like wht selene suggested, class jersey (:

posting tmr! i cant help but keep thinking about it. i wnt cj cj cj cj! if i get into aj, after the march holidays ill definitely study! and if i get into cj, after the march holidays, ill really study! hahaha. (you just wasted three seconds)

im not the only one for you. but youre the only one for me.

inez and jaime (: because jaime hasnt uploaded the photos. here, the photo and frame jaime gave me (: (thank you t those tht gave me a note or something)

the cake!

happy happy birthday andrew and kelvin (:

andrew must be elated kelvin's touching his hand! hahaha.

sookxian camille michc

camille micht amanda

micht (:

i can do it finally (:

so cute (:

the purpose was the quadrangle but...

stoning outside class

outside the hall mirror!
rockafella three again,

the garbage workers
the coooool girls, hahaha.

michc and i wnted t take stupid pics but ...

no one t help us take, or take with us. but micht is always around (:
1t30 (:

omg, i love the umbrella!

pepperlunch (:
shaun was stunned by our 'black magic'
aimlessly outside taka AGAIN.
micht is always E X T R A !
the guys

tommy hilfiger (:
the six mannequins, camille micht sally rick jess (omg i wonder how micht got the name) michc

check the cool woman!and the imitation! (HAHAHA)
she's the joke (:
the pirate, the soldier, the richman.

camille michelle michelle with the cool background (: heeren hideout
michelle the scholar (:

michelle the scubadiver (:camille the top secret (:

my orientation tshirt (:

my 12/17 jc badges (: (whose in jj and yj? i forgot who, but help me buy :D)
3rd February

(when soonxiang forced me t stay up late with him)
lastly, i will miss the two of you the most! my gossiping/fooling partners! and definitely 1t30 (: and all my hockey/netball/odac/studentcouncil/other friends i made (:you should know, it's true, just now the part about my love for you. and how my heart's about to burst into a thousand pieces. so it must be true, and they'll believe us too soon. baby, its fact our love is true. the way black is black and blue is just blue. my love is true, its a matter of fact. oh and you love me too, its as simple as tht.

2007-03-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

this week has been eventful, fun, exciting, hilarious but. dullllll ): only today was i a littttle cheered up. and monday will be the last day in cj for some of us ): camwhore time ~~again~~. ever since last friday, ive spent more than hundred dollars on food alone with my cj friends ): (excluding yest shopping and all) nvm, let monday be the biggest and most expensive meal! hahaha.

and we’ve plans alrdy, 29th march first outing after we separate (: and omg, i feel pressured for my As now. it sucks having a smart sister two years older and whose name was on nj’s board today. i learnt wht guys do in r21 movies today! someone accompany me t check it out :D for more pics, click here. and ohhh, check it out, my hair grew. but my fringe ):

anyway ive been squandering my life with jason's gta 3 and vice city and shaun's san andreas! tht game is really thrilling funny but siiiiccckkk and sadist. alright, im going t kill innocent people and pay prostitute t have sex, then kill shoot kick punch beat slash burn her after tht (: im not sadist or horny, im just having fun (:

keep trying, is my greatest fear. cause ive tried thousand of times.

21st february

23rd february

26th february

28th february

michelle returns (: and while waiting in the toilet cause we didnt wnt t go for assembly, two other girls who crashed, thought we were crashers! hahaha. and the toilet auntie was very nice and funny (:

back t secondary school day (:rockafella three

soonxiang's last day with mrang

1t30 (:

act dao

the class

the girls (: (without michelletan)

BIG eyes

small eyes

BIIIGGGG EYESthen they started getting horny, and took :O picturesmass fun and andrew keptwnting t take more disgusting onesbut no one was willingexcept someso ... :Don the waaaaythirteen of us (:the remaining ten classmates neoprint the fountain 1st march

(skipped school, and i heard no girls except amanda was present)

we walked from lavender t bugis (: 2nd marchwht ppl do in r21 movies
we skipped tutorial, so we decided t explore the school and .... empty lecture hall :Dthe performing arts centre yaywe stood on it (:then i tried sitting on this, failedthen we tried sitting on thisonly both of us managed :Dthen the rest cameeeee :D ( a pity the three withdraw students and amanda jianliang and kelvin werent there)

the hwajie sign :Dthe 1t30 sign (:and more came :Dpull your earsjuummpp (all failed)the girls
the stairs (: random seating arrangement
act cool
sleep
stone shocked
ugly face
on the stairs
fffflllyyyyinnng check out max's six pacs andrew's innocent smile
hanging outside taka playing games :D
why do i wnt you. choosing sides, i choose to hide. and try and act like i am fine. it makes no sense, but whats for sure. i can choose myself what to regret. now every second seems like a decade. that might sound quite cliche. just being honest, unlike my conscience but who hears that anyway.

2007-02-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

yay! wednesday and today, i wasnt alone. two words. youre my happy happy happy pill (: today's fish and co with some of my classmates, was really fiiiiilling. why why why, must we become so close then part. life really really sucks. anyway hockey match against pj tmr is cancelled, but epic with ig clique (:

this is not enough for me, yet you made it seem worthless.

2007-02-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

cny means. hong, food, gambling, kachings and morekachings (: and my mother just gave me one thousand cause of my results. yay, more shoopppppping! im considering the red ipod as the first item (: valentine’s day in cj was really sweet (: we hardly knw each other, but yet gifts roses cookies chocolates were given. thank you, i do feel bad for not giving anything. anyway join my praying team, tht i get rejected by my ffirst choice, aj ): cj for camille :D hahaha. first three months is damn fun, why why why must we all leave.

ive been trying t forget, but suddenly now. you keep coming back t my mind. sometimes its not about changing your direction, its about putting down a past you knw you'll never ever be able t.

i think i do look a little tanner (: more trainings under the sun please! and ive borat! im abandoning you you you for it now, byebye (:

9th February (the day of results)

the last time in stmargs with stmargs uniform for a study purpose ): six pointers :D

jane wong and camille

cheryl and angelhahahaha, when we were bored at taka's toilet hidden room (btw its not real)

the whole group (: 15th February
1t30 with the physics teacher and shulan who left ):
while shulan suffers, someone else suffers (in the action = look at the pants and shaun's hands, hahaha)
its your birthday (:

jason's and elton's birthday! (the real birthday guys) they wnted t rape the birthday boys (but failed)the (fake) blood donators who queued for nothing (:

my heart ):She's the man :D16th February

seoul garden with some of 1t30 (:phebe camille addie sophie
the houseflies
sophie the camwhore :Daddie flowers t us
20th February

we went zinc's house for PROJECT, part of the project :D yay i love my group

WHY WHY WHY

the gay shld join geraldine's group, NEWorld :Dkachings (:

i bleed for the second time tonight, holding the love thats in my mind. if only my love could be with you. if only this pain, this pain died too. so i break you away, away, away from me.

2007-02-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

im feeling disconcerted, and i wnt t die! when i finally have a chance t get into aj but i dnt wnt, my parents and sister prefer me there. theyre afraid ill be led astray in cj. i dnt wnt t disappoint them, but i dnt wnt t regret my decision ): anyway t stay in cj or t sa (ill be a singledigit student there :D) but im still damn upset bout my results, especially amaths and its 2. *%^%(#&$()#&. at least the star on the wall is mine mine mine (: michelle ~~forced~~ persuaded me t get my parents t sign the blood donation form. im damn scared! hahahaha.

LIFE SUCKS! like many bricks in the wall, im wearing off ):

2007-02-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

with emotions coarsing through my very veins, i wonder how life will be like for me in the future. i knw i didnt study as much as i did compared t prelims, but there's no room for regret. i dnt wnt a two digit, but my ability is definitely a far cry from it ): so im increasing my aim t thirteen, but i have this feeling ill get seventeen and above ): wht shaun blogged is so touching, 'im really very afraid i cant stay ): but please let me! i found whats called home'. the higher the expectation the higher the fall. whtever's t come, im praying Lord tht You'll be the last person who'll always be there for me.

i look, you look (: , i turn away ): just how much connections can there be between and within each other.

cj cross country

2007-02-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

im having this indescribable feeling! exhausted, ecstatic, drained, exulting, exanimate. the girls in my school are damn fast, especially the odac track canoeing and j2s! anyway for the interclass, our class clinched first (: and no its not another race, but they just counted the points from the previous position of girls and boys alone. and when they called our class, the feeling was just ___! and i cant believe the rest of the class picnic-ed along the way! hahaha.

with a class like mine, i wouldnt bear t leave. only if everyone does better than their ability or lousier than their ability, we can stay together in cj.

the champs (:

kelvin, 7th max, 8thshaun, 10thandrew MIA

camille, 14th
the two extras, soonxiang joson (he's a girl)
my number tag (:

2007-02-06T22:13:00.000+08:00

damn it, results are confirm on friday! *()%^#*&@^$ im not prepared! and we've not had our briefing, but we'll be going out as a class before tht (: xinya and i were having an internal struggle bout going for netball training today, eventually we went. we even made a video of her spraining her ankle as a ~~excuse~~ reason t not go for training. hahah. im too tired t do anything, and ive ca t study for tmr! anyway school has been really fun!

playing bridge before/after school/during lessons, playing bingo, skipping lectures, drawing random pictures on our notes, creating nonsense, exchanging uniforms, queuing for noodle king together, giving the canteen store tenders names, playing different sports after school, class lunch, island creamery before pe, watching max's magic tricks, gossiping in the canteen/grandstand, sitting at the grandstand (its damn cooling), taking scandalous pictures (HAHAHAHA), taking pictures together, taking funny videos, spotting cute/goodlooking/slim/fat/pretty/ugly girls/guys and manymore.

im seriously going t miss all of you, my ig mates, classmates, netball mates, hockey mates and all t those i just made friends with and school mates! i wish this wasnt first three months. i dnt wnt t have t go through the trouble of introduction, ice breakers, getting adapted t new schoolmates/environment/canteen food (if i dnt stay)/ new faces. i wnt this cj intake ): and i think lj is cooler than blogger.

cross country tmr! im like a far cry from getting top twenty. and my stupid knee injury is still pus-ing!

29th January,

class lunch at prata house (:

stmargs / junction 8

31st January,
1st February
before pe we rushed there :D
wht we do in class when we're bored, 2nd February,

stmargs (: at chompchomp with xinya xinru xiangli (: 3rd february,

town with 3/4 hippos

5th february,
at island with christine isabel yo (:6th february, cedarian (:
the ponners for pe :D

after school, the bridge class :D
michelle, the only one tht doesnt knw how t play bridge :D

me melissa rachelkwan (crasher) stefhani (:our failed attempt t jump

the twins,

2007-01-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

joke of the day, i got selected into student council. hahaha. joson reminded me tht its a few more days left, with my current friends in cj ): when im so comfortable with everyone and liking the way life is, ): flicks fringe, stupid shaun says his hair is longer than mine. (retribution, twisted his wrist, hahahah) omg, tht person's friendster makes me laugh! hahahaha. i need t study!

shaunn says:
ahahahah u so mean
shaunn says:
print it out leh

you shld walk pass everyday and again (:

2007-01-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

during wednesday's hockey, i was talking t felicia and (i forgot who) bout dance trials. she asked if i was going, i gave her a huge no. she said 'why? you look like a hiphopper'. HAHAHAHAHA. omg, she made my day :D and ive decided t try t not skip anymore hockey training, i felt so guilty on both fridays. somemore claire was super nice bout it! ive found bus buddies after netball trainings, xinya xinru xiangli. (i wnt t eat stingray) and cause of trainings, im way behind in studies ): every night when i reach home, it'll be bout eight t ten and when i start t face those sheets of paper, ill fall asleep!

school has been fun, especially friday. the two mich and i skipped physics lecture, wnted t eat noodle king but we saw laoda so we rushed t the library, had a hell funny phone call with michellet in the library, rushed t queue for noodle king ten minutes before lecture ended, talked t the two mich andrew shaun jonathan and max during recess bout guys/girls and other personal things, played bridge under the table with michc sook xian charmaine during chinese tutorial (i feel bad now), played bingo during physics tutorial with selene two mich. we've created the prettygirl/goodlookingguy tour! but the first was a failure, cause the three guys said _ wasn't pretty. hahaha.

we've many plans for the remaining few weeks of school :D i dnt wnt t receive results! i love school, without homework. and i think _ is with _ ): but she's still damn fine.

20th january
yin brother! i miss you ):

dawn yin camille aaron's birthday 'cake' at swensens

23rd january

shulan the gay with anderson pinafore HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHULAN (he looks really happy haha) please take a look at shaun the extra :/

aaron's present :D (his disgusted face)24th january

michelle and luoer the pinofore gang :Dshuan's upskirt photographythe prettygirl/goodlooking guys tour gang (:while waiting for our ccashuimin!

26th january

kelvin exchanged pe tshirt with joson

2007-01-22T11:47:00.000+08:00

MAANNUUTTD ): anyway i quit odac and track ): i think ive t quit hockey soon )): i dnt wnt! ~~i wnt t quit netball instead. i feel quite out, everyone tht got selected were netballers except me ):~~ michellec michellet geraldine and i couldnt stop laughing during physics lecture today. we've the same sentiments bout _! and this jason kept eavesdropping! we got the guys t show us their sixpacs, only andrew and max showed. played bball with class after school, cityhall-ed, towned with esh and germaine. germaine is ffunny! learnt many things from her, and she was commenting on every bung tht passed. hahaha. and f, i fell asleep and my gp homework is still blank!

at times i wonder, how much do we actually knw about ourselves and how much we think we know about others. well, in actual fact, i knw almost nothing about myself, and you.

you've swam in every ocean. you've heard a million songs and never tried to sing. ive read hundreds of books and never wrote anything. i love you, just the same.

2007-01-20T02:54:00.000+08:00

omg, poly openhouse is like more happening than jc's! the goodie bags and free gifts were like a thousand more! penny rachelk and i took/asked/won many :D (but they were worst than me) i hope nyp has more free things. anyway my class is damn fun! we always play bridge in class. and our laoda (home tutor) is super good and nice t us, he doesnt scold punish or whtever. we're going t have another sportsactivity next monday, this monday was volleyball (: and my classmates are all damn hardworking. the teacher asked us t do a few questions, most of them did the whole tutorial!

my life just revolves around school training school training town school training school town. and i still think ru's MrCute has a duck face, dnt knw wht she sees in him. and wth, SL is AS ): HAHAHAHA. and i showed michellecheah this damnpretty girl yest, but she says she's not pretty ): oh whtever, we are not looking at the same person cause we're looking through a different eye (something like tht, this is KI and i learnt this from cherylw hahaha)

I WNT T TAKE KI TOO, ITS DAMN FUN AND INTERESTING. I KNW WHY, WE'RE BOTH LOOKING AT THE SAME CHAIR, BUT IT MIGHT NOT BE THE SAME CHAIR :D IM GOING PRAWNING WITH SOME OF MY IG TMR (:

MONDAY

can you see us? she wnts t prove she's taller no we're from diff school, ijc and cjc

WEDNESDAY

SINGAPORESLINGERS VS MELBOURNETIGERS (:

THURSDAY
tp and np (:

some tp it course tht invented a software like neoprint

FRIDAY

hate michelle cheah, i made the whiteandgreen one, and she says the brown one tht SA gave me is nicer ):

my photography skills is getting better (:

this is wht we do when we're bored

rachelng sophie angel jesslyn cheryl me (prema and yin went home)

2007-01-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

my school days are screwed ): ive track on monday, netball on tuesday, hockey/odac trials and track training on wednesday, netball on thursday, hockey/odac/track training on friday, track orientation on saturday. im so stressed! i cant decide on which cca(s) t rule out and which t choose, so tht i can have more weekdays t go t stmargs t collect my kachings and mock ppl (hahaha), go for np/tp/nyp openhouse, meet up with all my friends, crash sa/ac/aj and play. oh and my ig might be prawning this sat (: im going t pon tmr's track t get my shoes from fel at sa, then meet sandy and phebe in town (:

its been months since i last saw you, its been weeks since i last talked t you. i miss those late night conversations, tht never fail t cheer me up and keep me going. now coming online, has become redundant. the last thing i never need is an indecisive mind. Lord, please give me a mind of my own t make the right decisions.

if i cant, if i cant have you. then baby i dnt wanna be with no one else. if i cant have you. then baby i would rather be by myself.

2007-01-14T13:19:00.000+08:00

i went for hockey training on friday. its really quite difficult t master it, t think i thought it was like floorball. had some commencement ceremony in the morning, and the whole class ate from noodles king. imagine the people at the back had t wait for twentythree bowls t be served, since soon xiang rushed down and we were the first few in the line. on sat, i went for odac. i can officially say. ive walked IN a big drain outside cj with drain water, drain smell, spider webs, lizards, frogs and mud, been smeared with sweetsauce, eggs, starch, noodles, mud, and everything disgusting on my face, hands, body and hair, and rolled in mud. we came out, brown and dirty from top t toe.

i went dxo last night. it was ... bad. i saw MANY cj people. some waved at me, but i cant remember who they are. hahaha. i promise t find out who they are tmr and remember their names. anyway im finally proud t say, i officially dislike clubbing. but i shall still go for the free one tht they promised elaine, jesslyn and me (: and i threw away two shoes cause of orientation and odac. now im only left with four ): i hope my mother's trip t america is made earlier t this month! i need new shoes! and im going t be homealone most of the time this year, cause my sister has free eight months and my parents are willing t spend money for her t travel around and accompany her (:( i bought my bag alrdy, its the last piece (:

lectures and tutorials, i feel so old saying it. and im finding it very difficult t cope during lectures, i cant write neatly fast enough and catch wht the lecturer is saying while copying.

i think this pic is damn cool, if only its me instead of elaine, hahaha.while jesslyn/sophie/phebe were struggling t get rid of the guy at the other side, and fel was sitting down, we were busy taking photos while dancing, hahaha.

we all thinks he looks like stanley stone, hahaha

we count hundreds on the table, twentys on the floor. fresh outta work and on the way with some more. and i love it, and i love it. i got gangstas in the crowd, bad bitches at my show. yeah its parked outside, and its sitting on fo's. and i love it, and i love it.

2007-01-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

omg, tmr ive four hours straight of gp lecture and three tutorials ): and i got into netball today! i dnt knw if i shld be happy or sad. ~~four~~ three more t go! track is tmr, odac is saturday, hockey is i dnt knw, ~~and swimming is monday.~~ and i might join fitness club as my second cca (: i hope i can get into hockey!

monday
i got a new class/og, thirty. and michellecheah is in the same class as me again! the last time was secone, we're fated! after a long and quite draggy day, went out for dinner with xinya, xinru, wanyin, eliza, jeremy, aaron, shu lan, zijian at fish&co. shu shan came, some left and we went t eat at bigo since shu shan was hungry. the usuals are really the usuals. xinya, xinru, wanyin, jeremy, shu shan and i. hahahah. i still miss my ig ):

tuesday
we took a bus t kallang, played telematch then dragonboated (: we were one of the three teams tht reached first (: but it was raining the whole day, i could not tan ): and elton is very lame and gay! he even has a purple bunny in his bag everyday! hahaha. my class is not as bad as i thought it was! was supposed t help kyuuka for the banner, but the facil didnt see us.

wednesday
we took a bus t eastcoastpark for amazing race. it was quite fun, but the lunch and dinner were horrible! i rather eat at stmargs. after we came back t school, bathed, ate, and we started telling dirty jokes. the guys are like damn horny! hahaha. finale night (: we had cheer and skit and storm competition. and my house, kyuuka (yellowhouse (:), got best house! aki(red) got best skit, forar(green) got best cheer and invierno(blue) got best storm. after tht we had mass dance. i danced with elton and he's like 1.8m tall. we danced normally, then the second one i was the guy and he was the girl! hahaha. so orientation ended ): after tht, we were supposed t drink but we didnt wnt so the others went. i just hung out at the overheadbridge with shushan, wanyin, jeremy and later xinya and xinru.

thursday
met jeremy at bishan in the morning t take our id photo. we made a new friend who also went t take! had four lectures. i almost died, maths physics chem econs. after school, i went back t stmargs with prema. claire cheerin weiqi came after. i saw nina lavenia elizabeth vanessakwek qinglun too! and it doesnt feel like im out of the school, i sort of miss it ): we roamed around and talked t ppl. and sorry charis, im coming back next week, so fishballs for you (:

went back t school for netball trials with prema. it felt very weird and ): i didnt really like it, somemore there were many past netballers! at least i made plenty of new friends (: so i got in, audrey and i are hesistating t go for the next training. after tht, took a bus down t town t meet rachelkwan. she made me wait for so long, the heavy rain even stopped (or almost)! hahaha. walked around, and went t shop. i finally saw a bag tht i like and im going t buy it this sat (: and mayb the green tshirt too. rachelkwan bought something for me, and i bought something for her (:

i miss my ig! and i feel a little attached t cj alrdy. especially since their mincedporknoodle is really nice and theyve really great ice blended (: and a girl finally asked me the question i was expecting ppl t ask. hahahahaha. i wnt my bag noooowwww! life's quite good, ive been going out and out and out. but not so, i cant get over you. im veryveryveryvery tired, track tmr at macritchie! get ready!

he wanted t kiss him, hahaha

KYUUKA, THE BEST HOUSE (: (means summer)

aki (means autumn)

forar (means spring)

invierno (means winter)

boom! its on, bitch nigga we'll rock your room. boom! bitch whats happening.

2007-01-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

HE'S ATTACHED ): im going t find a new target, but im confused. hahaha. ive been listening t takethelead, and i just cant recall the mass dance moves! (yes its quite seductive and touchy) and i think im going t withdraw from swimming. towned then gymed and swam today, and i seriously cant swim! xinya and i are planning t get toned before saturday's party. hahaha. and i wnt a new piercing! anyway i have this feeling, everyone around me will get attached sooooon.

schoooool starts tmr again ): more new friends, new class/og, new three days of orientation (dragon boating :D), new dance partner, new ogl, and im going t try a new blended ice flavour (:

c a mil le ; i couldnt catch the flight on time, and you wouldnt wait says:
now nobody please ): i go find girls :/ hahaha.
XINYA tempted by the ancient magic says:
dont find me hor. HAHAH!
XINYA tempted by the ancient magic says:
EH I TELL YOU LAH, YOURE ACTUALLY PRETTY HAHAHA

i will miss xinya and her nonsense and my ig twentyfour alotalot ): and she's lending me her cedar uniform (: ill find more schools (:

i wanted t be two, but more than one. i only thought tht i could be so dumb. i wonder if ill leave if you say go.

2007-01-06T23:52:00.000+08:00

went t sp in the afternoon.

then we went t meet syeila, iryani, penny, ilya, yin, addie (:

AND OMG, I CAN JUST DIE NOW. HE'S TALKING T ME ONLINE. HE INITIATED (: XINYA'S DAMN JEALOUS. HAHAHA. BUT ... AND IVE NOTHING MUCH T TALK T HIM BOUT. AND HE'S TAKING THE SAME COMBI AS ME (: mayb i can dance with him for mass dance (: XINYAAA! (((: and there's really pretty girls in my school too (: this out of point jeremy, nose just bled! hahaha.

2007-01-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

today was really a longlonglong muddymuddy day, but a really great one. bathed in school after the games at the policeacademy, and the toilet was really clean! it looks like some country club's. ill bathe there more often (: cca bizzare was boring, i signed up for five with prema! hockey, netball, odac, athletics, swimming. foodrepublic-ed at wisma with shu shan, xinya, xinru, wanyin, jeremy, aaron, nicholas, hao yu. aaron, shu shan, nicholas, hao yu left and we stayed on till nine plus. we talked bout everything! dirty things and all. hahaha.

i wonder who will be in my class/og next monday. please give me the same kind of ppl in my ig. i will miss eliza, wanyin, xinya, shu shan, larissa, lester, jeremy, aaron, randy, yang the most ): not forgetting sashangar, anders, tushar, zi jian, hao yu, nicholas (his cold jokes), cynthia, maple, sara, ruben, rena, ronald ): and i realized ever since ive been in cj, ive never gone home straight after school. when school starts, when school starts ): which is thursday! lessons again ):

xinya and i are like ... hahaha. and she doesnt wnt t wash her hands cause _ shaked hers, and told me not t wash it too. he remembers my name, but not some others (: and the way he says it, i can just melt! hahahahaha. im really tired, my eyes are bidding goodnight.

c a mil le ; i couldnt catch the flight on time, and you wouldnt wait says:
there's this really cute retainee (:
Put a straw inside and suck it says:
go after her laaaaaaaa
c a mil le ; i couldnt catch the flight on time, and you wouldnt wait says:
its a him :/

i bet my bottom dollar, youre the best i never had. and i doubt there's ever another chance.

2007-01-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

we'll be in blue tmr (:

cj is not tht bad after all, im having thoughts bout staying there now. t think i started off with, 'im definitely not going t stay in cj'. hahaha. i met many old friends, eliza, michelle, eirene, stefhani and many more! its a pity tmr will be my last day with my og, twentyfour, ): we're spliting into our classes for another three days of orientation. xinya xinru (twins) wanyin eliza aaron jeremy and i went t ps after school today. i really will miss them ): we've many plans! cs, badminton, tennis, try-out-all-the-nice-sports-ccas, clubbing (xinya and xinru, see you). and we're going out tmr again!

surprisingly, i dnt miss stmargs and i dnt feel like going poly anymore (mayb when tutorials start). and cj = cutej2s (: (retainees also (:) but i still cant find HIM (addie ):) and i love the blended ice! if you crash cj or passes it, ill treat you t it (: tmr tmr tmr, will be a long day ):

11th day of christmas!! says:
eh today is the second last day of x'mas! ):
c a mil le ; i couldnt catch the flight on time, and you wouldnt wait says:
): my true love hasnt told me tht she/he loves me ): i wnt thirteen yellow socks (:
11th day of christmas!! says:
hahah i'll try to get it. i go find you tomorrow. fly to cjc at 5.30 whn your school ends?
isnt belinda just so sweet?

i dnt knw how t read you. so now wht do i do.

2007-01-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

its 1236, and im ultra depressed ): im not ready ): new friends, new environment, new teachers, new cleaners, new toilet, new canteen, new food. how am i going t cope ): and im just wondering, will there be a new me? definitely. only three months, i can cope. after tht, i wnt t go poly. hahahaha. and ill go town or play everyday after school for the first three months before Os results (: good time t meet those i havent, so call me. at least i can also use my phone, so msg me. hahaha. and my ipod shall be my best friend and favourite weapon ): first day tmr, lunch with dawn diane and prema (: and anyone wnt cj tshirt? i can buy for you :/

~~mayb i can see you everyday~~ i guess ill be seeing lesserlesserlesser of you. cj, here i come.

2007-01-02T22:58:00.001+08:00

this zeroseven, i hope ill grow taller and tanner :D

my first post for the year! so new year's eve was spent at sherry's house with rachelng phebe sherry and i. left for esplanade, cause addie and sherry were keen on watching the fireworks. it was a disaster. there were irritating __- tht were doing some stupid actions. flock them! met addie and sophie after tht, sherry left t meet ahem, we left for hooha pub. lesson learnt, never take a cab after a countdown. we couldnt get a cab so we walked t lau pa sat.

jesslyn arrived in a cab, rachelng and i hopped in. serena is my first new friend for the year (though we took neoprints last year) :D drank sex-on-the-beach, fruit punch, shots, volka lime. and we made friends with peggy (this random regular pub customer), and she treated us t beer. she's super funny, and i lost t her like thousand and one times t the fingerguessing game ): eventually the rest arrived (they walked from lau pa sat t psa, the best), continued drinking before heading upstairs. the details are agreed t not be mentioned. (and sophie, no i didnt have fun with the cheekos hahaha) overall, it was forty over cause they gave discount and didnt charge for some :D

waited for rachelng and phebe t sober (they drank the least somemore), before heading t sentosa t catch the dawn. jesslyn rachelng serena and i got a cab but the three, again, couldnt get a cab. we just talked at palawan until seven before we went t meet the others at harbourfront for breakfast. my first breakfast was horrible, no ju kuey ): left for jesslyn's house while the rest went home. this new year was quite fun, except there was one small bit of last year i still prefer ):

today, after towning i went t kap t meet prema penny yin cheryl jesslyn joyce pat chris t give dawn and diane a surprise birthday party! the birthday was really hilarious! we booked the macdonalds' party place, and the woman was :/ she treated us like kids! we had t play the games, listen t her instructions, do this tht. hahahaha. walked t chris's house and we're all dreading tmr ):

because they always say. i bring a camera, take photos but dnt post pictures on my blog. im going t post almost all the pics (except those obscene and camwhores oneS, yes its you three, addie phebe and sophie) go sherry's, phebe's, sophie's, addie's blog for more pics. and i almost died, it took me twohours :/ cheryl hurry come online, i wnt pics from your camera! hahaha.

sherry's favourite jacket, ahem

phebe just ... check tht __- hand, so flocking irritating sherry's and my ipod :D

the early birds (: peggy's the man :D ill miss you addie, my seating partner ): told you, they were drunk
peggy the man, hahaha (addie's the best photographer) :/ the camwhorers who stole my camera ):

her forfeit for sitting on the chair, hahaha
hahahaha, they had t dance while i took photo

the losers for musical chairs (: this was how she won for musical chairs

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIDA (:

act cute :D

THE PARTY POPPERS (:

we took this cool pic at chris's house

2006-12-31T13:57:00.000+08:00

this year, it will be spending new year's eve at sherry's house. then it will be copious amounts of alcohol-laden beverages and being surrounded by strangers tht will see me through this festive season. and probably with the addition of drunken ~~one-night stands~~ friends. jesslyn, remember your toothbrush. hahaha. i better change now. im going t shop with ~~my aj recess buddy~~ rachelk and rush before the sales end :/ im seriously not looking forward t this new year, can i press rewind then pause. at least it signifies, an increase in kachings (:

here i am on the swing, just hoping for some miracle t happen. sins, take it all away. one thing - i (still) just wnt t see you dance.

2006-12-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

because five days later, it'll all be different. thank you all for always being there for me, i miss all of you )': as in really all. and i wonder, wht will my new class, new team mates, new friends be like.

dig in my insecurities, and you'll see.

2006-12-28T23:44:00.001+08:00

i finally bought my havaianas (: i think im really starting t like brown items. and addie kept bugging me t wear it. cause she was wearing her cheap one from aust, and she says its very comfortable (so much tht she wont wear heels anymore) and slip-free. addie prema yo and i practically talked bout jc and jc and jc the whole day. and we've planned, one week crash one jc (: prema and yo left early, so it was left with addie and i. we shopped around, she wnted vest dress bag, but got none. hahaha. and i still cant find my perfect shoes.

another six days. we'll all be in our school uniform again, but in different schools. at least ive a straight bus home (105), and cj is very near town (105) :D. i think after first three months, ill knw all the bus drivers tht drives 105 alrdy. and stupid aj cheated my feelings, but i didnt regret the first and second training (: prema agreed t try out almost all the ccas with me, and we're going t buy something blue t match our uniform (: im checking cj on the internet, the sports achievement is like :/ but i heard there's dragon boating for orientation :D but shit, chonglong just told me nyjc is going sentosa!

im going t meet addie now, she wnts t buy slurpee at this late and cold night :/ ferrero rocher will be enough! edit/ omg, i bought cupnoodles potato chips and ferrero while she bought slurpee instead of ferrero! bitch bitch. i still spent lesser. from far, i thought she was walking a dog when she was carrying an umbrella. hahaha/

and i love it when you call, but you never call at all. im flipping with a coin thts got a tail on either side, while i wonder where you been, i wonder who you seen.

2006-12-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

they are waiting :D

she thinks she's cool, i beg t differ.

guess whts this! HAHAHA (my favourite pic for the year :D)act cutesi still think this is damn cool

because msn is not working, and im so bored. i decided t talk t myself (dnt you find blogging is like talking t yourself. the only diff, you feel restricted t pen your thoughts) yest mahjong, i won thirtycents :/ phebe won two over dollars while elaine and fel both lost a lot. hahaha. anyway while stupid fel kept using my computer for her mygirl, we played with our new four friends, them.

mine's hot, he/she is nineteen. i love him/her, cause he/she always make me a farmer or florist! HAHAHAHAHA. read phebe's , elaine's and fel's blog cause its more detailed, i think. THEY ARE WAITING :D AND I HATE THE RAIN, IT MAKES ME SPEND MORE MONEY ON CAB AND ....

sometimes, i feel like i dnt even knw you at all. but its alright, i still think youre ____. (fill in the blank)

2006-12-26T00:22:00.000+08:00

christmas eve was spent with trish jesslyn phebe elaine fel in town. the highlight of the night was, the witness of a fight! a group of bengs, beat up one guy. we were in awe at the beatings, it was an eye opener. walked, drank, got sprayed, sprayed, sang. im supposed t go out with the hatechristmas gang today. nvm, christmas has twelve days! and oh yay, i received the good progress award (improvement award, my dream came true :D) . this is quite fun, not working but yet hundred and fifty kachings rolling into my pocket! yes yes, few dollars taken out t treat rachelk.

I NEED SLEEPING PILLS! im still suffering from jetlag, and waking up at unearthly hours. i think im going t die real soon, chrysanthemum finally (: eight more days, im not looking forward t it cause i dnt even knw if im in aj or cj! and i just realized, my jc curse worked. cj for camille, ~~fbitch~~! the holiday in the morning with duck, and mahjong, vcds and stayover at my house tmr with phebe elaine fel. im going t win their kachings, come come. hahaha.

boooo, im going t call aj tmr. wht shld i say if i get rejected? thank you? but i prefer saying, 'okay loh, whtever.' hahaha. im under school crisis and school depression ): merry christmas,

2006-12-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

d says:
u want me to drive u to school? i cant drive but to cheer u up
d says:
where is aj? i go surf now and find...no la none near my house but i will send u to school
d says:
HEY! IM TRYING TO CHEER U UP AND MAKE U FEEL BETTER
c a mil le ; breathe symphonies, come on sweet catastrophe says:
i feel worse, actually
d says:
oh ok...hmm if i making things worse then i can get offline =(((
c a mil le ; breathe symphonies, come on sweet catastrophe says:
NO DNT
d says:
im actually smiling as i talk to u cos i miss u!
d says:
hey on man i am more than willing to company u after school. serious stuff. cos i thot if u got no one in jc i wil send u to school....i will send both u and jess cos 2 of u poor thing, no friends there.

DDDD IS SO SWEET (: BUT WE STILL HATE CHRISTMAS, CAUSE OF ____. I DNT KKKNNNWW!

2006-12-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

my instructor's quite cute (:

singapore is really hot! back there, the temperature ranges from five t twenty. and they called tht, summer. anyway i went paragliding (hello sentosa pals, seven hundred metre above ground, im not very scared of heights alrdy hahahaha), riverboarding and jetski-ing (: riverboarding was really fun. try boarding through rapids, waterfall, whirlpool in water tht was below ten degrees. and i almost bought a surfboard and skateboard. thankfully i didnt. if not im dense. no wave no fun no time, no money. overall, i love newzealand (:

i got posted t cj. oh well, on a higher note cj ppl are goodlooking and pretty (: or at least thts wht i see on the buses. but im still waiting for my appeal confirmation at aj. mayb i shldnt have let things lose control, and have placed sa as my first choice. i wnt touchrugby ): boooooooooo, i need t paaaarrrrttttyyy ):

i wnt t watch love actually again. its so naive, where everyone will eventually be really happy with, love. and i just heard something funny. i dnt knw i dnt knw i dnt knw. shld i or shld i not. im jetlag-ing now. can i say this, i hate christmas and life really sucks.

merry christmas, (:

get on the dance floor where the music is free. slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me .

2006-12-09T17:09:00.000+08:00

racha camille meiryl yin dawn

byebye familiar faces and familiar strangers ): im going t meet the other one million quarter part of the world tonight. and jetski/bungee/skydive and whtever (if i dare), and buy cheap chocolates and sweets (: dnt worry, ill bring back wooooool for everyone t play with, like in the cartoons how cats and dogs play (:

this christmas, malenka. grant me, my only wish.

2006-12-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

booo (:

camille (s)andy phebe (:

im very tired, and ive aj training tmrrrrrr ): anyway today is my last nightlife in singapore till i return ): and finally after towning everyday since last week, im getting sick of it. but boo, im going there again tmr t meet racha and co. yes, racha's back :D ~~camwhored~~ took many pics today, hahaha. im thousand and one lazy. so click, eilynn's blog, and here. (i knw sandy and phebe, you two are dying for the pics)

bloo bagoo. huree. boobasnot. hahaha. this is damn cool, dnt think anyone understand. so now i knw why you wnt t learn it :D and omg, i think im changing! after three weeks of hearing get low at least once everyday, im still not sick of it. hahaha. i need sleep and courage t walk into aj tmr again.

i see you winding and grinding up on that pole. i knw you see me looking at you, and you already knw. i wanna love you.

2006-12-05T04:37:00.000+08:00

its winter for strawberry shortcake :D

booo, its four thirtyseven in the morning. and im still waiting for tht moneyfaced idiot t finish studying. and she wnts me t say, i love strawberry shortcake. hahahaha. my legs are aching from training, and ive aj training this thursday! i hope it'll be as fun as last thursday, despite being the only junior. )': (ARE YOU HAPPY NOW)

my kachings are slowly flying away ):

i wont stop chasing after you, it doesnt matter how far. cause everything i need is everything you are. dnt have the answer or the words to tell, all i know. where you are going, is where i wnt to go.

2006-11-28T11:41:00.000+08:00

everyone are getting/alrdy found a job ): at least i found a buddy who doesnt wnt t work either, cheryl woo! hahaha. we're not going t waste our holidays! and im still hesistating bout highlighting my hair. guess wht, my sister and i received the edusave merit bursary :D but damn it, we cant apply for it ): and i think i club too much, i only like clubbing songs now. sherry, stjamesstjames before we leave? (:

im going t continue the aj training ): but im going t play very gently, lest i injure another girl. and im going t spend all my kachings (:

cause i waited much too long, or just said something wrong. and i miss you. but im not giving up on this yet.

2006-11-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

ONE ALL, MANUTD ): ALAN SMITH SHLD BE IN ):

2006-11-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS PORKING FUN, AND LIFE TOTALLY ROCKS now :D we tore our entry proof just now, and the feeling was, great! bye books, bye pens, bye entryproof, bye bald invigilator, bye school.

okay, but it'll be a matter of time when ill start complaining bout how boring it is. hahaha. omg, there's thousand and thirteen things t look forward t from today onwards. towning, vivo-ing, shopping, MOS/coco latte/ and more, prisonbreak/gong/oc/onetreehill marathon, dvds marathon, movie with eirene eugene timothy and crew, meet up with michelle melissa xuelin and crew (its been YEARS since we last met ):), meet up with dawn diane, dying hair with cool phebe, mahjong with phebe fel and iforgotwho(s), church with fel, pool-ing, basketball dinner, basketball chalet, basketball-ing, soccer-ing with charmaine linus and crew, wakeboarding with my cousin, suntanning, drums/breakdance lessons, lan gaming, stayovers, CHRISTMAS :D and more. last but not least, my first three months jc application (aj or sa ): )

~~and fel and elaine is taking damn long t come t collect the ~~tap dance~~ shoes. hahaha. i wnt my chocolate ):~~ omg, fel and elaine suck big time. they're sleeping on my bed ): when theyre supposed t go home! and THE PIG, HE breathes very loudly ): hahahaha.

singing you to sleep, while you dream, while we murder on the radio.

2006-11-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

firstly, the 20th october post is not by me! i DO NOT like strawberry shortcake! hah. secondly, i wnt t catch step up again :D (tyler's sister is called camille, and i wnt t go clubbing with channing, hahaha) thirdly, yolanda sucks cause she just told me she has a twentydollars topman voucher tht expires tmr. so im going shopping with her tmr. fourthly, i wnt a moneytree outside my window! fifthly, tmr is my last tuition for the year! no more sji/cedar guy/girl. sixthly, Os has been alright. i had onehour t check my emaths papertwo. so, i calculated the 5+10+15...+500 question on my calculator! seventhly, five more days till i can play everyday like how i study everyday (:

she's passing me some pain. but she's one in the same. got my number and my name. anyone tht knws the woman's a dime, come and sing it with the rich.

2006-11-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

step up is like ultimately hot, and channing tatum's damn cool! i dnt care, im going t catch it this sat (: and i dnt mind watching it again and again! anyway we had a deal before ss paper. 'if merger doesnt comes out, we'll wear the hood during the paper.' hahaha. manutd is top of the table! i wnt t be top too, but you reap wht you sow.

these wishes i wished, and these dreams i chased. i feel like i lost everything when you're gone. left remembering what its like to have you here with me.

2006-11-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

i will definitely miss studying and going t the library everyday when Os are over )': not forgetting my mango orange without orange drink! rachel and i made two new friends in the library who are also taking their Os :D and tht cedar girl who doesnt go t the library anymore ): talked t me during tuition! hahah. anyway i went for my once-a-week-shopping after elit paper today :D i cant wait for 16th november, party shop party! and i love the bald invigilator, check him out! and all the best t those taking their Os and As ONLY (:

and i despise ppl with long fringe, hahahahaha.

i got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby, gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes. you were worth the hundred thousand miles.

2006-10-20T01:50:00.000+08:00

HELLO , im KAH-MILLE, e big baby. i love t slp at 11pm every night. but my stamina has improved recently. i can stay up until 12am now !

its study brk now. i did okay for prelims, though i can still do better . i tnk i wanna go NYP for first 3mths. oh no , wait , poly dosent hv first 3mths! ): guess i'll just hv t go jc then .

OH NO ! its past my bedtime alr )): ive t go slp now! nd ppl , dnt forget t watch strawberry shortcake ! she's so cute (im getting all hyped up alr) .

smell you beings ltr (:
PEACE OUT

what's it like to stay in a cake made of strawberries,
work and play in a cake made of strawberries,
learn the way of little miss strawberry,
strawberry shortcake, and you will know,
strawberry shortcake and she'll know

2006-10-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

(((((((((((( (:

i shdnt love you, but i wnt to. i just cant turn away. just so you know, this feelings taking control of me and i cant help it. i cant let him win now. thought you shld knw, ive tried my best to let go of you but i dnt wnt to. ill lock up my heart and throw away the key, if thats what it takes to keep your love with me.

2006-10-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

it was really a heart wrenching situation, especially when mr anthony was giving out the report books, mentioning something positive t everyone. anyway i will definitely miss threefive/fourfive and all the fond memories we had together ): dots camp, busking, class chalet, class parties, maths trail at the airport and definitely the class time where we'll play and talk bout many things )': we've been through so many, and finally after two whole years of friendship, we're going our own separate ways. wht can i say, i didnt regret picking physics as my choice (:

we took super many pictures today, even a chikuku reunion pic (except racha)! hahaha. ill upload them sometime. anyway t twofour, threefive/fourfive, basketballers, hiarsd, marcy and all the different individuals (: ill keep all the memories we had together close t my heart (: I ~~WILL~~ MISS ALL OF YOU ):

and it is so sad t knw tht only when we knw we're going t lose something, tht we'll start t treasure it. and i must agree with krishna's theory, 'we come together only t go apart again'.

ITS FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH AGAIN (:

FOURFIVE (:

some things can never be replaced. some things are with me for always. these are the things i will remember, when i remember when. id rather love and lose it all, than never have you to recall.

2006-10-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

after reading the letter i received today, im undergoing self-realization like krishna. hahahaha. ): ive been thinking for the few minutes, and i realized ive drifted from many individuals. and i really missed those times ): stop making me reminisce! hahaha. and im bringing tissue paper tmr, cause i think ill be emotionally sick not mentally. t think melissa and i had t teach rachel the difference between them. hahaha.

and rachel was super irritating. i told her ppl go shopping once a year like me. and she said, im different, i go everyday! hahaha. oh did i mention, i can finally concentrate on studying. because i bought three shirts (: VIVOVIVO, I WNT T GO ): and im beginning t miss fourfive and all my friends ): oh life sucks.

)':

2006-10-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

life sucks. my life has been revolving around this two words for the past few days. anyway we had a fourfive congregation this morning, and our class results ranges from eight t thirty! we've the top student(s)! hahaha. im quite contented with my results, though i think ive t take arts for first three months ): and i dnt knw where t go cause open doors are limited, but sa will always be my last choice. for now, its a definite byebye t vjc for first three months ):

and i agree when ppl say 'its when o levels nears, tht we find our true friends'. who would have thought, ~~she~~ ppl can be so selfish and competitive. only rachelkwan understands, cause she witnessed it! and i think we shld not marvel over ppl's fantastic results. instead we shld compare with our own, since diff ppl have diff expectations and abilities. i improved by twelve points, so i must be contented.

i think im going t reach the enlightenment stage (:

i would give the whole world for you. anything you ask of me, id do.

2006-10-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

im learning t be contented with my marks. and apparently, im only halfway there. t think i actually tried convincing prema t be contented. hahaha. i think im sinking into depression soon, but i dnt knw the reasons. its not the results, cause all the subjects today reached my expectations, especially chem! but im not contented.

like who ever is. when you get a2, you'll wnt a1. when you get a1, you'll wnt a higher a1. and when youre the top, you'll wnt t get higher t beat yourself. but its tough always being the top, imagine if you falter one day. anyway tmr is THE day ): and ive decided, im definitely going for vj, aj, ac and sa open house (:

i ~~must be~~ am contented (:

is there some place we could go to be alone? one last thing before you go. a little song t let you knw, that i never wanted t be anything but everything, t you my dear. but i spoke too soft, for you to hear me say, 'i wish tht you could stay.'

2006-09-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

i broke the school canteen's glass yesterday, in an attempt t cheers with yolanda. hahaha. anyway i bought a seventyfour dollars shirt today, and im not regretting it (: and today is the second last time im going for retail therapy. after next thursday, im going t find motivation t start studying again, somehow. for now, (:

and im anticipating for results, cause i wnt t shop and play if i do badly after each day of return of scripts. and i realized, there's no children day! and i feel like going out NOW, at 143am! hahahaha. from seven more months, t three more months, t, five more weeks!

i shld be happy right? one down, four more t get.

when i look up in the sky i see you. then i turn and close my eyes, and its you. when im sitting all alone in my room, everything reminds me of you.

2006-09-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

i learnt something new from teresa. our hair grows 1-2mm a day. so by next wednesday, when we've collected all our prelims results, my fringe would be bout 10mm longer (: and hady's 'you give me wings' touches my heart! im melting while im listening t it now. hahaha.

three more weeks, before we cant camwhore with our polkadots.

sherry the hotstuff pirate, whose unV (:

now youre here, by my side. i just wnt you t knw, you give me wings when im falling. thts why im singing t you. you give me wings when im falling. you lift me up when im down. taking me higher, touching the sky, you make me fly (:

2006-09-22T23:47:00.000+08:00

i shopped with rachelkwan for four hours today. hahaha. rachel's a great shopping partner! we shopped from fareast, t topman, t anywhere i/she wnted. rachel also found her longlost bunny, and we took photo with it :D and we even _ at kino :D BUT, i had t promise her lots of things. from buying tht last-in-my-shopping-list zara tshirt t buying her a crumpler bag when i start working. hahaha. now, im so tired! at least im left with only five items in my shopping list :D

we got back our geog mcq today, and i scored the opposite of thirteen. hahaha. but the rest of the prelim results are only out next week, or the following ):

clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight. you are the best one of the best ones. and you have stolen my heart.

2006-09-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

i cant wait for my results, then i can start finding a place t work. hahahaha. the papers were relatively easier than midyears, but i dnt knw. and i knew how t do all the questions for amaths paper one, it was the first time. BUT, i just had t screw my amaths paper two, by being careless and forgetting t wear my thinking cap on tht day. hahaha. at least the relative velocity was quite easy. and when i saw it, i was grinning from ear t ear, cause _ :D but, its all over!

watched the devil wears prada yesterday, suntanned at sentosa today and towned after tht. and i realized im so used t studying, tht i get bored easily. im going t start studying next week, and continue shopping and watching my movies (:

im ~~darker~~ redder than before again (: ~~but not for long~~

this is funny :D

in your eyes i see a darkness that torments you, and in your head where it dwells. id give you my hand if you'd reach out and grab it.

2006-09-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

after two years, i can do chair freeze again (:
im going t try out other moves. and ive planned a list of things t do alrdy, i think ill do it before the end of my prelims. haha. and i wnt t do something exciting. numberthirteen tattoo? ((:

every drawing that i drew, was never as pretty as you.

2006-09-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

trish is a bad influence. we almost sneaked out on friday night, BUT, we stay worlds apart so. hahaha. but ive decided, after prelims, ill sneak out one of the nights, t play. so im going t practise climbing out from the balcony or window tmr (:

edited
monday ; amaths group with rachelkwan enya shona / national library with rachelkwan
tuesday ; national library with phebe germs sherry jane / bishan library with germs
wednesday ; study with sarahang / bishan library with kiasu rachelkwan and her sister
thursday ; chem group with enya / physics group with enya nina shona / pool with trish / shop with esh
friday ; english with fourfive / lunch with yo rachelng at a disgusting place (HAHA) / national library with phebe sherry

all the best t those taking their prelims, ~~especially me~~ (:
/edited

i wnt a yellow number thirteen tattoo on my finger or hand (:

i feel the blood pumping round my brain. i dnt know wht to do. i dnt know wht to say. cause no one knows that she puts me through anyway. im awake in disaster, i cant seem to get past her. i try and i try, but i cant get away.

2006-08-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

im taking a break from studying today. but, im feeling even more stressed not studying. and i improved for my term three results (: i can finally get into a jc! but the lousiest one, thanks t the eight points from english. and trish taught me how t earn money! hahaha. while im teaching her how t _ ((:

Chienne Chaude says:
you go to a fountain and pick coins

i miss my mango frost, ~~and the fat man who always serves me~~ (:

now if i wrote you a love note , and make you smile with every word i wrote. would tht make you wanna change your scene, and wanna be the one in my scene.

2006-08-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

IM NOT HORNY, SHERRY WONG! IM JUST CREATIVE (:

anyway school has been really funny! cant recall much, but i remember i suddenly sang christmas songs during amaths. and we came up with. bobbyCLAUS clarissagan, THEGRINCH sanya, rudolphREINDEER camille, dollyNUTCRACKER nina, shelfTOYMAKER sharon , jackTHEEVILCLOWN huilin :D

sherry and i were damn high during our oral. we talked bout s__ :D and i wnted t tell my examiner, 'when i open one of my eye, i can see you. when i open both my eyes, i can still see you. when i close my eyes, i cant see you. but i can picture you in bikini' :D

the hardest thing ill ever have to do, is to look you in the eye and tell you i dnt love you, t turn around and walk away, pretending i dnt love you.

2006-08-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

i wnt t watch hard candy! but, its m18. so im going t find a company, who is eighteen and above. and i think i can learn a lot from the movie. strangers shld never talk t little girls (:

di says:
if you think you can do it, go retake
di says:
i didn't and hua hu die wanted to kill me cos she said i shd have tried, the 2nd time was easier

softball tmr (:
and i feel like drinking rocky master's mango frost again ((:

these shattered dreams, from broken wings of love. october skies and city lights were all a blur. you make the calls tonight. i surrender, t your love. this is for real.

2006-08-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

HOW FAR FROM HEAVEN

i thought i will be able t see miss wee smiling at me, and telling me my results, be it good or bad. but, it was not her. i wnt t talk t miss wee now ): and i think my class is very smart. everyone got b and above, except one who got cfive.

anyway phebe and i accompanied rachelkwan t get her contacts after school, and we were trying t let out everything at the bus stop.

phebe ; im going t start the ball rolling
takes out tissue paper
camille ; oh no, mine is rolling!
rachelkwan, the A1-er, just sat

there we also created an emo poem t suit our despondent mood along the way! after tht, we headed t town t gorge ourselves with food! we saw dumbledore :D and i finally went for my retail therapy!

our emo poem
life is a tragedy, just like my body
everything is disappointing me, why not just let me be
i wnt t fly so high, just like a butterfly
so i can drop down, and die
slit me, rip me
just dnt follow me, cause you've got no orginality

thank you t those tht tried cheering me up, giving me advice and encouraging me (: and thank you t youknwwhoS for the upcoming treats (: and t tht certain someone whom i owe a treat instead!?!?!

mayb i didnt put in enough hardwork and effort, t get an A1. i think im going t heed chickenhead's advice, of not letting a little set back crush me. ~~its so difficult t please everyone.~~

i need t talk t you, but im running out of excuses t talk t you. why do you ignore me. all tht time together, feels like yesterday. cause time will pass me by, and mayb ill never learn t smile. but ill make it through, if you wait for me.

2006-08-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

YOURE BEAUTIFUL, LIKE THE COLOURS OF RAINBOW. AND ALL I GOTTA DO IS LOOK INTO YOUR EYES TO LOSE MYSELF.

PREMA'S HILARIOUS FALL :D steph elsa and i got t skip assembly t help her with her wound! and prema was moving around in a wheelchair. how cool is tht :D

amelia, amanda and their sister came at night (: we played catching barefooted, with esther marcus and co till eleven plus. and im having blisters and cuts all over my feet now ): but i feel fit! HAHA. now, i need t burn midnight oil for abandoning my night study session.

i miss going t their house in the middle of the night, i miss swimming with them, i miss watching la pi xiao xin in their house. and most of all, i miss all the fun ): i love my action hero, my bball junior and their sister :D

its great t talk t someone i havent talk t for quite some time. now ive someone t rant my unhappiness t. seriously, thank you (: and its going t be a two day week :D

do you hold the phone when youre alone. imagine that it rings, then hold it to your ear. and wish tht i was there to sing you off to sleep. be with you in your dreams, for the days i will be gone. ill be there in your dreams and in this song.

2006-07-31T01:16:00.000+08:00

I PROMISE T NEVER FALL IN LOVE WITH A STRANGER AGAIN, CAUSE ILL NEVER FIND ANOTHER LOVER MORE PRECIOUS THAN YOU.

MY WIFE/HUSBAND (:

th i rt ee n ; i saw you through the keyhole, and im down on my knees says:
i cant find a pic of you and me!
เอ๋อน้อย VS ปึ๋ยน้อย says:
you just cut you and me in the middle! hahaha
เอ๋อน้อย VS ปึ๋ยน้อย says:
i got ur mail! u are the first singaporean fren who wish me! ahhaha
เอ๋อน้อย VS ปึ๋ยน้อย says:
OH YEA>> NO MORE NOSE BLEED?? hahahaah
เอ๋อน้อย VS ปึ๋ยน้อย says:
probably no more PRETTY GIRL in the class ever since i left!!
เอ๋อน้อย VS ปึ๋ยน้อย says:
even mei n addie are still not pretty enuf to make ur nose bleed ahh?
เอ๋อน้อย VS ปึ๋ยน้อย says:
hahaah SORRY AH>> MY STANDARD IS PROBABLY TOO HIGH FOR THEM TO CATCH UP!

i miss racha ): and syeila, and christine ): HAHAHAHA. two more weeks t o level chinese results, six more weeks t prelims, and sixteen more weeks till my o levels end :D

and i dnt wnt t come online alrdy, cause i dnt wnt t see _ _. im not _, really! *%$#*(@&#*^%)@*# anyway, the cute guy in my tuition was quite ugly last week, but this week he is getting cuter again (: and im tired now ):

she is hoping to forget, and the moment almost slips away. when the colours move apart, and i wonder. if you want to stay. and i need to change you, like the words im reading. this the warning and the message, i remember as you touch my hand. and i knw i shldnt have had you waiting at all, now i need a time machine.

2006-07-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

YOU KNW YOU ARE MY TREASURE CHEST, ITS PURE PERFECTION. YOURE MY MISS, IM YOUR MISTER.

ive been playing a lot in school! from addie and i giving a letter t liling during amaths saying 'your application to hogwarts has been REJECTED. yours sincerely, Dumbledore' t gillian suddenly taking all my black pens for no reason and threatening t throw it away t playing arm wrestling in class :D and while studying after school in class on wednesday, i talked t shona charmaine jolene eunice vanessa and chunmeng bout jc. and during geog today, penny teresa and i talked bout it again! and so many people's applications have been accepted ): teresa, xinyue and chorkwan; ac. shona; ajc ):

anyway ive been staying back in school t study with rachelkwan. and yes rachel, ill always listen so please dnt post _ post alrdy (: and i realized tht i hate combine science! the questions are like super easy! like wth! and my class's performing for teachers' day, ill be performing with allysa and co too :D and omg, my class was uttering nonsense bout the o level chinese results. they said it'll be out this monday which is not true, its supposed t be after national day! in-class-rumour!

and ive finally found the artistic side of me today :D during english, i dnt knw wht inspired me but i wanted t draw a picture of a guy molesting and stabbing a woman! HAHAHA. when everyone heard bout it, they were disgusted! i tried drawing the woman, but she looked horrendous! rachel even said her head look like _ from the angle she was sitting! HAHAHA. eventually i only drew the man, while clarissa drew the woman for me. and her drawing's phenomenal :D

and i love my baby joke :D when i told my class, they were like cursing me for being sadistic! at least huilin appreciates the joke and she likes it too :D and on tuesday, i invented the game, 'guess my word of the day'! HAHAHA. YAY (:

and let me tell you a secret, i grew taller :D and i like it when i click on my previous link and when there's. NOTHING :D i bet the rest of the world are feeling frustrated, while i feel happy :D

i love basketball, and stmargs basketballers (: click here!

ST MARGS BBALLER :D

our diff groups, and this is DAMN cool :D

SECFOURS :D

and we were, playing with the tree :D

part one of the drawing, wait for the full version :D

i could feel it from the start. couldnt stand t be apart. something bout you caught my eye, something moved me deep inside. promiscuous girl. wherever you are, im all alone. and its you tht i wnt. you knw wht i wnt, and i got wht you need.

2006-07-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

TAKE THIS BLADE T MY WRIST, HELP ME END WHT MAKES YOU UGLY.

three more weeks t the o level chinese results, and i have this feeling i wont get wht i wnt. if i really do badly, tht i have t retake ): ill sit along one of the roads, t _ and reflect :D and manutd's new kit is, abhorrent! im so glad i bought mine last year. and cap-less looks, queer!

i wish the rest of the weeks can be like the past three weeks ): anyway its my _'s birthday today! a pity i cant wish her ): but happy happy birthday _ , i think youre really cool (:

and people say, the more you like someone, the more you'll look like them.

wht hurts the most was being so close, having so much to say, and watching you walk away. didnt wanna wnt you so bad. didnt wanna need anyone. but now i cant go on without you cause everything's different. im naked, i cant fake it. im not tht strong without you. never thought i could love you, the way i do.

2006-07-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

THE WORLD IS BLACK, AND HEARTS ARE COLD. AND I JUST CANT LIVE, WHEN THIS WORLD JUST KEEPS DYING.

IM STILL DISTRACTED ): EVER SINCE MONDAY, IVE BEEN SO DISTRACTED THT I BARELY STUDIED. NOW IM UNDERSCHEDULE ): BUT ILL BE HAVING STUDY SESSION IN SCHOOL FROM NEXT WEEK ONWARDS :D AND WE MIGHT JOIN THE 'THOSE WHO FAILED MORE THAN FOUR SUBJECTS' STUDY SESSION TOO. I JUST HOPE THE PLACE PEOPLE ARE QUIET. DISTRACTIONS (:(

AND I KNW HOW T WEAR A SARI :D SPEECH DAY TODAY WAS QUITE FUN AND MOTIVATIONAL! I LOVE THE GALLERY PEOPLE (4E5 AND 4E6), THEY'RE WE'RE SO ENTHU :D AND WE PURPOSELY GOT EVERYONE T KEEP QUIET DURING CHRISTINA'S TURN. NINE ACHIEVEMENTS. ARE WE STUPID OR IS SHE VERY SMART? AT LEAST, IM VERY PROUD OF MY CLASS :D WE'LL GET OUR STARS NEXT YEAR :D

FOUR MORE MONTHS ): NO WONDER, WE KEEP TAKING PICS DURING LESSON, IN CLASS, OUTSIDE CLASS, AND OUT OF SCHOOL. AND I REALIZED, EYEBAGS CANT BE GOTTEN RID OF ): DAMN IT ): AT LEAST ITS WAS WORTH IT, OR AT LEAST T ME.

AND IM DISAPPOINTED WITH MY FRIEND'S FRIEND. IVE GOT NOTHING T SAY T YOU, CAUSE I THINK ITS POINTLESS. YOU WONT GET IT IN YOUR HEAD, CAUSE YOU DNT EVEN GET WHT MY FRIEND SAYS INTO YOUR HEAD. FOR THOSE KAYPOH PPL, HIGHLIGHT THIS. OH NO, I REALIZED THERE ARE A LOT OF KAYPOH PPL HIGHLIGHTING THIS, SO IVE DECIDED T. NOT TRUST THESE KAYPOH PPL AND NOT WRITE ANYTHING. IVE NO TRUST FOR YOU, SO BYEBYE :D

ITS HARD T LET GO, WHEN THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING T REMIND ME. IVE TRIED T GET YOU OFF MY MIND. IVE TRIED T LIKE SOMEONE ELSE. BUT EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES, YOURE STILL INSIDE MY HEART. LIKE THE STARS IN THE SKY, YOU KEEP ON SHINING DOWN YOUR LIGHT, BUT OUT OF REACH. I OVERSTEPPED THE LINE, CAUSE FALLING FOR YOU WAS SO EASY. AND ILL JUST HOLD ON.

2006-07-13T11:23:00.000+08:00

YOURE THE SONG THT WRITES A STORY, BUT LEAVES A LOT TO READ. THE CLOSEST THING T PERFECT, BUT THE FARTHEST THING FROM ME. YOURE INCREDIBLE.

IM GOING T WATCH CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW ROW HIS BOAT ON SATURDAY (: AND I DIDNT GET T WATCH THE MATCH ): MY MOOD IS DAMPENED. NO COOL IDOL ): HAHA. AND I THINK IM GOING T FIND OTHER PPL T PLAY BASKETBALL WITH, CAUSE PREMA'S AND MY PLAN FAILED AGAIN, FOR THE FIFTH TIME. LIARS.

AND IVE NEW JOKES :D NO MORE DOG GETTING SMALLER! HAHAHA.

I WISH I DIDNT LOVE YOU, I WISH YOU'D MAKE THIS EASY. I WANNA BE BY YOUR SIDE, SO I CAN CLOSE MY EYES TO THE GROWING EMPTYNESS INSIDE. YOU LEFT ME WITH NOTHING, BUT FOND MEMORIES I CANT ERASE. AND NOW IM FIGHTING BACK EMOTIONS, CAUSE IM NOT SUPPOSE T LOVE YOU ANYMORE.

2006-07-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

ITS AMAZING HOW YOU CAN SPEAK RIGHT TO MY HEART WITHOUT SAYING A WORD.

THE EFFECTS DAMN COOL RIGHT, I DID IT :D AND LOOK, B DIV SC VS RGS! HAHAHA. TOO BAD, I POSTED A-CANT-REALLY-SEE-MY-IDOL PICTURE :D THE BEST THINGS CANNOT BE SHARED :D AND I WNT T BADLY GO FOR THE SC MATCH! THIS CANNOT DO! AND I WNT T WATCH PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN! GO ITALY (:

ITS A MOTIVATIONAL TOOL. AND ITS BACK T SQUARE ONE AGAIN. BUT BOTTOM LINE, (:

DNT LET ME HOLD SOMETHING SO DELICATE, ILL SHATTER IT. AND DNT SAY A THING AS WE GET CLOSER. I CAN FEEL THE STING. THIS IS GONNA HURT, BUT I DNT MIND.

2006-07-02T01:43:00.000+08:00

SEXY LOVE. GIRL THE THINGS YOU DO, KEEP ME SPRUNG. KEEP ME RUNNING BACK TO YOU.

PLEASE GIVE ONE MINUTE OF SILENT T TORRES WHO CANT PLAY IN THE SEMI-FINALS ): ( HE'S AN EX-BENG, WITH TATTOOS PLASTERED EVERYWHERE ): )

ANYWAY THANKS T GERMANY'S AND PORTUGAL'S WIN, IM TEN DOLLARS RICHER! ITS SANYA'S AND MY PAYDAY ON TUESDAY :D I THINK RICARDO AND CRISTIANO RONALDO ARE TERRIFIC! RONALDO'S PENALTY KICK WAS THE NICEST, HE SHOT UPWARDS :D I HOPE FRANCE WOULD BEAT BRAZIL LATER! SORRY, REN ZHE JIAN REN, ZHI ZHE JIAN ZHI. AND FOR THE FINALS, I WNT ITALY OR PORTUGAL (: AND I THINK I TALK TOO MUCH BOUT SOCCER!

SO O LEVEL CHINESE ORAL IS THIS WEDNESDAY, THUS THE SUDDEN USE OF CHINESE AGAIN. AND I HIGHLY SUSPECT THERE'S TWO PLS IN MY TUITION! HAHAHA. WE WANTED T STALK THEM, OH WELL MAYB NEXT WEEK :D ANYWAY I CANT WAIT FOR MY JUNIORS VS SC. I HOPE I GET T SEE MY IDOL (:

WE MIGHT BE PLAYING BASKETBALL THIS MONDAY (:

FOREVER, ILL WAIT HERE. I DNT KNW WHT IT IS YOU SEE IN ME, CAUSE IM EVERYTHING YOU WONT BELIEVE. WISH YOU'D JUST STOP AND WALK AWAY. STARE AT YOU AS YOU SLIT MY WRIST AND AS WE SHARE OUR LAST KISS. HOLD ME AS I DIE. THERE'S NO TURNING BACK. MEMORIES GONE BY, YESTERDAY'S LOST IN TIME. HOLD ME, SAY GOODBYE.

2006-06-28T05:13:00.000+08:00

BITTER LOVE, UNREQUITED LOVE OR WASTED TIME. IM JUST CHASING SHADOWS IN MY MIND.
I THINK I CAN FORGET BOUT SLEEPING ): THE MATCH JUST ENDED AND MELISSANG'S THE ONLY ONE ACCOMPANYING ME! THE REST SUCK, THEY SAID ME THEYLL BE AWAKE AS LONG AS I MSG THEM ): ANYWAY NO MORE TORRES, NO MORE RAUL ON THE FIELD ): I THOUGHT I COULD SEE THE MOST EXCITING MATCH, SPAIN VS BRAZIL ): ITALY, MY ONLY HOPE! BUT IM FEELING SUPER LOUSY AND I CAN FEEL THEIR PAIN INSIDE. ITS CALL EMPATHY ): ANYWAY IVE FOUND WORLD CUP BUDDIES / BETTING BUDDIES IN CLASS! GILLIAN MELISSA MEIRYL SONIA AND SANYA :D

I WISH I COULD BE THE ONE GETTING TENSED UP. I WISH I COULD BE THE ONE RECEIVING GOOD LUCK MESSAGES ): I WISH I COULD BE THE ONE WEARING MY NUMBERTHIRTEEN JERSEY. I WISH I COULD BE THE ONE PLAYING ON COURT. BUT I CANT, SO ALL THE BEST JUNIORS (: ( AND I WNT T SEE MY IDOL (: )

~~THIS FEELING NO ONE SHLD KNW. IDKWTHIAGAJA, TFS. HIAG! ISC. ISC. ISC. ISHTY. IWBTT, TM, EWYLM. DYERWWFWO? DAMN IT, BIWICTYHIF, AHMIMY. BUT NOT LIKE YOU'LL CARE ANYWAY.~~
IVE GOT A LOVE. A LOVE THT WONT WAIT. A LOVE THT IS GROWING. DO YOU KNW WHT IT FEELS TO BE LEFT THIS WAY. WHEN YOURE GONE, AND THE FEELINGS THEY STAY. IM SORRY, I DNT KNW HOW TO SHOW YOU I CARE. BUT ITS TOO LATE, YOUVE MOVED ON. I MISS YOU. AND INSIDE, MY HEART IS BREAKING.

2006-06-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

CAMILLE SAYS GO SWEDEN GO!

I'm helping TEE KOON blog cause I'm so bored and GERMANY HAS SCORED TWO SO FAR AND SWEDEN IS LOSING):):): How sad is that): AND ITS HALF TIME NOW. HOWHOW WHAT TO DO! And I forgot, Camille wanted me to say that she's Saudi Arabia's number one fan. JUST LIKE CHEN SIYI(:

EH! ACTUALLY WHY ISN'T SWEDEN CAMILLE'S FAVOURITE TEAM. THEY'RE ALL COOL AND YELLOW! :D

& CAN YOU BELIEVE I SAW A SAUDI ARABIAN JERSEY IN ITALY, BUT IT COST LIKE 140 SING DOLLARS ): Couldn't buy it for their number one fans. OHWELL.

AND CAMILLE THINKS SHE'LL BE VERY COOL WHEN SHE BUYS HER NEW WATCH THAT LOOKS LIKE AN MP3(: SHE WANTS TO BE ALL GADGETY AND HIGH TECH!

AND THEY'RE BACK! I HOPE SWEDEN WINS. AND IF THEY GET OUT I'M GNG TO SUPPORT BRAZIL! Or ITALY! Or maybe i'll join Siyi and Camille in supporting Saudi Arabia.

I THINK ITS DAMN COOL HOW SWEDEN AND ITALY AND MANYMANY COUNTRY'S ARE PATRIOTIC(: We don't even have Singapore in the World Cup. AHHAHA cheer for the referee? :D

and grace amazing takes me home, says:

HAHAHAHA a

nd grace amazing takes me home, says:

HOPE SWEDEN GETS 3 GOALS OKAY!

and grace amazing takes me home, says:

GERMAN IS KICKING ASS

SIYI IS COOL :D

VANESSAAAA cannot wear heels says:

sweden is lagging ):

S to the T to the EPH! says:

YEAHHH

S to the T to the EPH! says:

IM DAMN SAD

S to the T to the EPH! says:

AHHH!

S to the T to the EPH! says:

DO YOU SUPPORT SWEDEN?(:

VANESSAAAA cannot wear heels says:

haahah more than germanyy!

VANESSA IS COOL TOO!

Anyway I'm gng to try watch the match without distractions like the computer :D HOPEFULLY A MIRACLE WILL HAPPEN AND THEY SCORE LIKE TEN GOALS. WAH :D

Ok Camille you can be cool too(: DON'T CRY! :D

(Shit Larsson just missed his chance of scoring the most goals in World Cup History & getting Sweden 1 goal with the penalty kick)

:D S to the T to the E P H!

2006-06-23T02:37:00.000+08:00

YOU NEVER TOLD ME WHT YOU FEEL INSIDE ; and now youre telling me. 'ITS TOO BAD BABY tht YOURE SO GOOD TO ME. i like you, YOU LOVE ME. too bad bady YOURE SO INTO ME. i cant breathe and YOU FALL IN LOVE TOO EASILY'

SEE, IM BLOGGING :D AND NO ONE'S ENTERTAINING ME OTHER THAN STEPH, WHOM IM MSGING AND WHO IS IN ITALY NOW, AND MY STORYBOOK ): AND TONIGHT'S JAPAN VS BRAZIL MATCH IS AT THREE, HALF AN HOUR MORE! I THINK I DNT NEED TO SLEEP ALRDY. ~~TORRES IS PLAYING TMR ):~~

AND WE'RE JUST NOT FATED TO MEET.

i try to be strong. but she will not wait for me, anymore. i see your face with every punch i take. and every bone i break, it's all for you. my worst pains are words i cannot say, still i will always fight on for you.

2006-06-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

TO NEVER LOVE ; OF FIND A LOVER YOU DNT HAVE TO LOVE

I WNT A MOHAWK HAIRSTYLE, LIKE ROB'S (: if i ever get a chance t have it, ill dye it orange, shave a smiley face on the left side, and the number thirteen on the other :D and ill probably be kicked out of school, so it'll be a good time t go usa and join the csi team! HAHAH. sometimes it doesnt hurt t dream a little too far :D

im very drained out again ): so goodbye (: and steph says she'll help me blog, so please evacuate :D

others will come along, they always do. but whts the point, when all i ever wnt is you. i tried to go on like i never knew you, but it just didnt seem to work. and its not like how it used to be. but if i am able to see you smile again, it would be the best gift ever. ill miss you.

2006-06-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

FEELING SOMETHING IS TRUE, IS NOT THE SAME AS IT ACTUALLY BEING TRUE ;
sentosa-ed with jane phebe and fel :D we're all burnt now! anyway towned, faynat sweeney joined after. and we went t buy alcohol, since we didnt manage t buy it at sentosa. i think we have an affinity with guys in cap!

at sentosa, phebe and i asked this guy in cap. he just smirked and said 'sorry, im not eighteen yet'. and he's super cute :D while at paragon's stairs, fel and i asked this guy in cap and he helped us :D phebe faynat and i drank only, and phebe was super drunk / high after tht! and we had a difficult time trying t open the bottle. in an attempt t open, i cut my finger. and now, i cant write properly!

anyway im very tired now. and japan lost ): and ive lots of plans coming up! go out with racha and co, class party, drinking with my drinking partner rachelkwan, play pool with isabel, play basketball, watch silent hill, cars, just my luck, rv, study at national library. yay, but i need t tone down ): and i need t find a place t study! read jane's, phebe's and fel's blog for more information, and since picture says a thousand words, click here :D

and anyway im closing my blog, tmr ): so, my longest entry :D

bought a ticket for a runaway train
like a madman laughing at the rain
a little out of touch, a little insane
its just easier than dealing with the pain

you have bound my heart with subtle chains
so much pleasure tht it feels like pain
so entwined now tht we cant shake free

in my arms, in my mind, all the time
i want t keep you right by my side till i die
im trying to show you the life of somebody like you should be living
oh baby, you could never go wrong
if you let me hold you

there are moments, when you cant deny
whts true just an ordinary day
like when i met you

and it hits me when i reach for you
tht im afraid you wont be there
maybe i am in too deep
but i dont care

i wanna know if you're busy
i wanna know if you're doing anything tonight
i wanna know if you missed me
i wanna know baby
youre beautiful
thats all that i can say
unforgettable
im caught in every way
dnt ever let the mirror tell you lies
just look at your reflection through my eyes
you're beautiful

no i cant let you go
youre a part of me now
caught by the taste of your kiss
and i dnt wanna know
the reason why i
cant stay forever like this
now im climbing the walls cause i miss you

maybe i was the one who left a trace
was there a message written on my face?
were my emotions, so easily read tht
you would knw my thoughts before a word was said?
was it my eyes tht let you knw tht you had control?
because the way you move was so self assured
you knew i would surrender

ive seen perfection in a rainbow in a sky
ive seen a children who make the coldest run and cry
but loving you i thought was greater than them all
and we had it all just
you and me
and now there is a doorway to my heart without a key

girlfriend
you make my head start spinning around
and all i can ever hear is the around of your heart beating in my ears
girlfriend
this boy has found another reason to sing
youre reminding me of everything
tht i hold dear in my heart

when the darkness finds the night
my heart still beat for you
in your eyes i see the lie
but the light's not from me
i turn around and walk away
but ill never escape the pain
when this love i feel for you in so strong

maybe its just me, but you seem finally happy
i dont think ive seen your face just glow
like a neon sign, and maybe we should be alone for ever after

and i cant live if youre not happy
i cant live if you cry
but i can live without you if it makes you smile
and i cant wait to see you rise
and i cant wait for you to shine
but i can wait for you if all you need is time

if i could change this heart, i would
and say i love you, only if i could

2006-06-10T02:13:00.000+08:00

FOR WHT ITS WORTH, IT WAS WORTH ALL THE WHILE.

watched she's the man and the omen (: now i wnt t watch silent hill badly! like how often do you see movies getting rated five stars? ill pay whoever half the price of the ticket :D i wnt t play the game too! and i miss playing cs ): anyway school's been hell fun! read phebe's blog :D

and ive completed all my holiday homework, i feel so accomplished (: now, its revision time ): and racha will be back this thursday, just in time for our class party :D this week has been totally, queer! _, _ and _. rachelkwan is like the best advicer! 'if the guy will treat you t the movie, why not go right? ' like wth.

four two, the match wasnt as exciting. i wnt t go germany now! i wnt t see torres (: sentosa on monday, suntanning! lets _ and drive dive :D

remember we'd be up all night. talking till the morning light, like the way it used to be. those simple days, just you and me.

2006-06-06T00:13:00.000+08:00

MELODY IS JUST, WOW :D
she and nick blow me away! and stupid jamile can go and die, i wnt blake ): anyway rachelkwan is irritating. she doesnt wnt t help me with my physics question, reason being she dropped t combine! nasdunwajrcci. and i finally bought yellowcard's cd! they're so yellow and so cool. i love them :D today's 060606! trust me, its worst than friday the thirteenth (:

and im going t stay up late on friday t watch the first match. i think im going t suffer from a hangover, from __. HAHAHA.

i wish i could give the world to you, but love is all i have to give. and youre more than a dime plus ninety nine. its a shame, you dnt even knw wht youre worth.

2006-06-03T12:13:00.000+08:00

FERNANDO TORRES'S SUPER CUTE AND GOOD (:
i cant wait t see him play, on tv :D six more days. im going to need a lot of sleep now, to store up my energy! and i need to find someone to accompany me through the night, entertain me and keep me awake! to tell you the truth, i support the countries for the players :D

SPAIN ; CASILLAS IKER! RAUL :DD FERNANDO TORRES :DDD
BRAZIL ; WHERE'S RIVALDO? ):
NETHERLANDS ; VAN DER VAART RAFAEL :DDD RUUD VAN NISTELROOY :DD ROBBEN ARJEN!
JAPAN ; NAKATA HIDETOSHI :DD
PORTUGAL ; CRISTIANO RONALDO :DD
ITALY ; INZAGHI FILIPPO! DEL PIERO ALESSANDRO!
ENGLAND ; STEVEN GERRARD :DD MICHAEL OWEN :DD

with great dreams, comes great sacrifices ): then can i dnt have dreams? 469 ):

do you remember why i walked on water for you? do you remember my first step on the moon? have you ever wondered why i gave three wishes to you? you asked me do i love you, but the answer lies in you.

2006-06-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

I WNT THT NIKE WATCH ):
im going t save up for it, just t prove t rachelkwan i can save money! and i dnt talk t myself! physics lab was fun, sat beside rachelkwan. BANG BANG, i like the orange gun :D today's maggie mee recess was funny! they really brought the thermo flask! and im postponing my one-chapter-a-day-tys plan t next week :D

THE OMEN! the nun, she's the man, silent hill and slither! i wnt t watch all ): today on my way home from town, i felt like i was on a boat for a moment. sitting on the double deck, the bus suddenly swayed from right t left for quite some time. someone with quite some weight must be dancing from one chair t another, mayb he forgot his steps.

i cant wait for tuesday, the nun with mei they all! friday, sentosa with phebe and pals :D we're going t buy _ and get high together :D

if i have t fly now and never come back, id turn around to see you for the last time. and i hope i can hear those words i long to hear. but its not going to happen tht way, when youre in love again.

2006-05-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

MO SHI ZAI REN, CHEN SHI ZAI TIAN :D
i guess this phrase can explain everything bout the chinese paper (: and i realized chinese aint tht bad after all, especially if youve memorized a list of chengyu and phrases :D t think i was all worried, and was even awake at four. and only ascott was awake, cause he msged me at tht time! crazy! HAH. and i cant believe i actually was waiting for _.

anyway i went t see the doctor for my knee again. cause i was limping in town, with my knee hurting like crazy, while sherry and phebe just continued walking. HAHA. and the doc said 'no more sports for the time being'. sjadiasjdkjcmckdm. cold-ing with sherry and phebe in town just now, was just crazy :D

melissa and artem got kicked out of 'so you think you can dance' ): nevermind, there's still melody! and even though its the holiday, i must balance between play time and study time. oh well. xian ku hou tian (:

DE BU CHANG SHI ):

sometimes it seems like all i hope for just gets thrown down on the floor. and then it seems like you dnt love me anymore. sometimes i wish i could run away, sometimes i wish i just knew wht t say.

2006-05-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

HAO GAO WU YUAN ):

and a part of me is asking why.

2006-05-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

MR BARTENDER. GIVE ME A SHOT, I JUST WANNA BURN THE NIGHT AWAY.

my last cross country, ironically it was my worst. its the first time i stopped, medals were given out instead of trophy, orange juice were given out when i dnt drink tht! but during the run, many unknown ppl cheered me on :D some even knew my name!?!? but thanks unknown ppl (: secone fourteenth, sectwo second, secthree fifth and secfour tenth ): jiu you zi qu :D

i think town is infested with queer ppl during weekdays. HAHA. towned with bballers, dawn, diane and chris. and the singapore sales is here! old stocks!

im petrified by the thought of monday ): its no ordinary paper, its o levels )): cajsefmnkdjfusklasmdcvjdasdimu

i still remember every glance you shot me. its so deep tht it didn't even bleed and catch me. off guard, red handed. i wish i could believe in something new, please somebody tell me its not true. ill never be over you.

2006-05-24T22:13:00.000+08:00

PEPSI MAX MAKES ME HIGH :D

YAY, tmr i can finally be free from one day of chinese intensive cause of cross country. i just hope my stamina is still stamina. GO MACRITICHIE, GO GAGEBROWN. HAHAH. buring bit, jane bnd b baw bhe brocess bf shi bnd qi breaking bp. BABABA. b bove by bit bnimal bartners (:

and ive decided not t dsa! im going t count on my own abilities t study! HAHAHA. but i wanna go vj ): and there's frisbee as cca there! HAHAHA. touch rugby, floorball, soccer, odac, waterpolo, sailing or cross country :D

AND PRETTY BUNG IS PL ): ): ): HAHAHA.

when they know they're your heart and you know you were their armour. and you will destroy anyone who would try to harm them.

2006-05-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

IM FEELING EVEN WORSE THAN A LOBSTER ): ): ):

who would have thought, i improved from last year's endyear, but deproved from this year's tests. from A to C for physics, A to B for amaths, and the worst is C to F for english! anyway overall ive only one A1 and thts emaths ): two Bs, four Cs and one F9! i think ite bishan shall be my numberone choice! on a higher note, im one of the fiftytwo percent in the level tht passed amaths, but not the seven percent tht got distinction ):

towned with phebe and rachelkoh yesterday, and we saw a huge bazhang :D anyway for now, im going t concentrate on my chinese o levels, thts in another ten days ): panic stricken. i cant be distracted anymore! sdncsxwkcmasdskdjasncjuismnysaihdsajnxscau

and i wnt t play bball and go running now (:

these colors will not change, you change the way i see them. and mere words cant explain the love i have inside. i can feel it in my soul heart and mind. but i dnt knw why i like you.

2006-05-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

BANG BANG, SHOOT ME!
i dnt wanna go t school tmr and friday t collect my results ): its too demoralizing ): anyway i passed my chinese, from a c6 t c5 :D after intensive played bball for a while and watched 'when a stranger calls'. it was quite terrifying! and i dislike the after effect of suntanning, the pain from the burnts are irritating me ): click here :D i rather get burnt t death under the sun :D

DA VINCI CODE TMR, with phebe sherry rachelkoh, if there's still tickets (:

when i close my eyes i can see you, its like youre right here. and the strangers around me all look like you. i dnt want to fight, i forgot wht we were fighting for. and this loneliness in my heart wont let me be apart from you.

2006-05-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

IM SUNBURNT, FROM HEAD T TOE :D :D :D
i just hope it'd remain, and stay as a tan. but its so painful, and im like radiating heat! blow wind blow! HAHA. at least i can finally wear my white shirt for this period of time (: anyway im very tired, from playing at sentosa t towning with them and later with phebe sophie addie bliss sonia. and there's chinese remedial tmr ):

BASKETBALL TMR, AND TOWNING WITH BASKETBALLERS :D I MISS THE TUMMY GANG :D :D :D

you talk to him, and it burns me like the sun. you talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one. i talk to me, but you cant hear the pain i feel.

2006-05-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

"wht a beautiful wedding, wht a beautiful wedding!" says the bridesmaid to a waiter."yes, but wht a shame, wht a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I CANT WAIT FOR THE GREAT SINGAPORE SALES :D
and even before it, i alrdy spent seventythree dollars on an adidas and nike shirt ): i must start saving up. before all i can go is, window shopping! HAHA. i think ryan's cool and melody's great, i wanna learn breakdancing again :D the last time was A LESSON with bliss and dorcas :D

fourteen more days t chinese o levels ): i need t start studying, before i lose my oneandonlychance t stop studying for chinese for sixmonths! and i found a new way t destress, play minesweeper :D

i cant wait, SUNTANNING TMR :D :D :D

please dnt go crazy, if i tell you the truth. no you dnt know and you never will. this blanket is freezing, its been out where you've had me for ever. im sure what i want, and darling i want the same thing tht i wnted before.

2006-05-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

maybe when i look for things tht i cant replace. maybe when the room is empty. maybe when the bottle's full. maybe when the door gets broke down, love can break in.

ITS THE THIRTEEN AGAIN, THT MY HEART BEAT A LITTLE FASTER (: AND ITS ENOUGH T KEEP ME GOING FOR A MONTH :D

im still so sleepy, tired and drained out from yesterday ): anyway check out sherry's blog for more information bout the party at cocolatte. all in all, it was quite fun. but i disliked the smoke smell, the music and the guys there were a major turn off. HAHA. and ):

anyway andy roddick is withdrawing from his competition ): its so unfair, i dnt even have a basketball competition t withdraw from! HAHAHA.

i was close. but not now, when its you all over again.

when everything i adore, and everything im living for, is in you. i cant dream, sleepless nights have got me bad. while the only dream i ever had, was being with you.

2006-05-12T02:13:00.000+08:00

throwing peanuts down the aisle, stupid but it made you smile. you came over for a while then you whispered in my ear, the words that i longed to hear "i want you to thrill me here".

its so queer, t find myself not studying.

anyway time passed really slowly today in town cause we were all drained out. and phebe jane and i found a new secret place where we had our heart t heart talk :D we actually got so engrossed tht we forgot bout addie rachelkoh and sophie at the foodcourt. HAHA. i finally ate my mango icecream at taka (:

and i think im going t do really badly this midyear, cause ever since friday ive been distracted even though i woke up at five everyday t study. and i screwed up my amaths paper today ): stupid logarithms! but like wht everyone said. 'its only midyears, we'll work harder!' :D

AND I CANT WAIT FOR WORLD CUP :DDDDDDDD im going t stay home all day and get glued onto the tv (: GO BRAZIL GO ITALY GO ENGLAND GO NETHERLANDS GO JAPAN GO PORTUGAL GO SPAIN GO KOREA :D

my planned oneweek holiday plan (:
thursday ; towned (: (HHB ADDIE)
friday ; haircut :D / towning (: / addie's party at coco latte (: (HHB MELLY)
saturday ; tuition ):
sunday ; part one of my sleep day :D
monday ; part two of my sleep day :D / self chinese study ):
tuesday ; sentosa with mei and co :D then towning (: (HHB MEI)
wednesday ; chinese intensive till twelve ): / BASKETBALL :D / towning, movie with basketballers (:

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, let it never fade away. catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, save it for a rainy day.

MISREAD/

2006-05-07T12:33:00.000+08:00

wherever i may be, best believe im thinking of you. & i still cant believe how much i love you, even though you couldnt care less.

im finally done with english / emaths paperone / chemistry / chinese / puregeog (: and i panicked when i heard we will be given TEN pieces of foolscap for geog, but i used eight. and the hall is too placid, im not used t it ): i kept finding ways t break the silent. i cleared my throat, shifted my chair and spinned my pen till it drop. HAHAHA. therefore this lost of concentration caused me t have barely enough time. but all in all, exam's okay.

and whts keeping me going till thursday, is the fact tht ill have a one week holiday (: thursday being the end of my papers, friday being vesak day, monday being the paper for combinescience, and tuesday wednesday being school holiday :D i cant wait! i wnt t play, shop, suntan, watch tv, sleep and wht not (:

but i still have t get ready for O LEVEL CHINESE, PRELIMS AND O LEVELS ): no more last minute studying for me, im going t start right after the one week holiday! and im bent on completing all my tys by the end of the june holiday, so i can do it twice or even thrice before o levels. cause they say those who do well, does their tys more than twice (though my sister's an exception) :D

and siyi called just now, asking if i was at serangoon stadium!? although elsa stays near me, she can vote but mine is a walkover ): WE ARE SO CLOSE YET SO FAR! and she's currently my broadcaster, a good one :D and i saw this adidas shirt today, im going t buy it after exams! okay i admit i went shopping for a while. HAHA. but wht can you expect, when my tuition is in town!?

im getting quite sick of blogging. everyone is like reading my life like a book, how fun ): anyway i knw its unpredictable, but i think it'll take at least another six more months before i can forget. so altogether, it'll be a year? and i wonder how im going t pull through, when almost everything reminds me ):

I WNT T EAT THE MANGO ICECREAM AT TAKA AND PLAY BASKETBALL NOW ):

stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me. hide the details cause i dont want to know a thing. i wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel.

2006-04-29T12:57:00.000+08:00

for what we've become, we just feel more alone. always weigh what ive got against what im left, so i am missing you to death.

im currently feeling, 'a mentally or emotionally disruptive or upsetting condition occurring in response to adverse external influences and capable of affecting physical health, usually characterized by increased heart rate, a rise in blood pressure, muscular tension, irritability, and depression' :D

i wnt t be a fountain (: so i can sprout out everything i just studied, and still retain it for my o levels. HAHAHA. and my mood was dampened by the newspaper ): anyway i have a sudden urge t play basketball! i wnt back the indescribable feeling i have whenever i play it. cause it is my drive t work harder, and my shadow (:

how many times have you heard someone say ill always be there for you, despite it being impossible t be there twentyfourhours. yet it is the love we feel that makes us believe, or at least hoped we could. sometimes i wish we never had t come t this, and tht things will always be the same ): but look wht fate had done t us.

(: evah i htiaf siht esol tnow i

you're the one i need tonight, now and forever my love. no promises. and baby, i just wanna die in your arms, here tonight.

2006-04-28T05:13:00.000+08:00

close my eyes & move to the back of my mind where feelings mean nothing, cause im breaking apart all this love in my heart.

ITS FIVEAM, AND IM GOING T STUDY FOR MY SOCIAL STUDIES NOW ): FISHCAKE AND CHANXI ARE AWAKE TOO. OH ~~CRAP~~ LOBSTER, I FEEL TERRIBLE. AND I WNT A TWIN SISTER SO WE CAN STUDY TOGETHER :D

I WNT T BE A SPONGE (: I WNT T SQUEEZE OUT ALL THE INFORMATION, BUT ILL PROBABLY NOT GET THEM BACK ):

im trying so hard not to care, but its not fair. i wish i could tell you that im feeling better everyday. but i cant find my way.

2006-04-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

and i dont understand why you're leaving, i said. but i hope your gonna ask me to wait.

I MISS PLAYING BASKETBALL ):

anyway i bought tht onehundredandeightyninedollars adidas w5 adicolor shoe (: its damn nice and new, tht i dnt feel like using it for school tmr lest it gets dirty! the changable yellow stripe is seriously ugly ): and my shoe has a nice addictive new smell :D

and i realized when i study for the whole day, i tend t learn new things bout my room. so today i learnt tht i still have flowers from valentine's day scattered all over, last year's birthday presents and my valentine's day presents in a corner of my room!

im so sick of being tired of studying, and im so tired of being sick of studying ): i need t find something / someone t motivate me and t get me through all of this studying till late at night ):

WAL S'YPHPRUM ETAH I

dont know how many times i said im going to live without you, and maybe someone else is standing there beside you. but deep inside i feel like im dying. i have to see you and its all that im asking.

2006-04-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

you've got this new head filled up with smoke, ive got my veins all tangled close to the jukebox bars. and you are everything i want, cause you are everything im not.

my 2.4km run timing is really bad, though its better than last year's 12minplus ): i cant seem t be able t achieve my goal of getting less than eleven minutes since last year. now im starting t doubt tht all dreams can come true.

and class time has been rather fun, i love fourfive :D during white space, xinyue nina and melissa were entertaining the whole class with jokes. 'your mother was so dumb, tht under the sex section of her air ticket application form she wrote twice a week'. HAHAHA. miss ng says all the teachers have been complaining tht we look stressed, but she begs t differ. 'you all dnt look as stress as last year, can you all be stress?'

i saw this really nice adidas shoe with yolanda, tht this adidas shopkeeper has today! but i couldnt find it at any adidas outlets ): anyway i ~~need~~ wnt a new bag (no more sling please) and i need t buy the adidas adicolor shoes (: my school shoe has a hole! and tht adicolor shoe is damn cool, i can change the color for other occasions. but my sister says its not worth it for a school shoe ):

now i feel like a photographer's bulb, one tht has overheated and exploded. if only it can be the start of the o levels now, then it would mean tht ill be be able t skip the process of studying, be alrdy prepared with information in my head and be a sponge. cause anytime now when the starting signal is heard, everything will flow out as it is supposed t but ill never get back all the information ):

'why run? cause not running is not an option' (:
i think i digress too much.

hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens. a thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins. i will never ask if you dont ever tell me. i know you well enough to know you'll never love me.

2006-04-21T11:53:00.000+08:00

cause im a wishful thinker with the worst intentions. this will be the last time you get to drop my name.

THIS IS SO RAAAANDOM. AND PARDON ME FOR ANY NONSENSE IN IT, IM JUST DESTRESSING (:

rules:
1. bold the following words that are true about you.
2. italic the things you wish were true.
3. add one thing true about you
4. ~~and then tag onetwothreefourFIVE more people.~~

I miss somebody right now. ( surprisingly i miss school now ): )
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lens.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome.
I've been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someones' bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast/unclear.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. ( I BREATHE THROUGH MY MOUTH, NOT THROUGH MY PHONE OR CALLER I D )
I like the way I look. (at least im not disfigured (: )
I am usually pessimistic.
I have alot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. ( as long as the person im with at tht time is not sad, ill be hyper. cause i hate it when ppl's sad, they make me sad too ): )
I have alot of friends. ( definition of my alot = more than thirteen :D )
I am currently single. ( IM CURRENTLY THIRTEENTH :D )
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone. ( neutral )
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. ( I WNT T SHOP NOW ): )
Enjoy window-shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. ( I WNT T LEARN HOW T SLEEP FOR TWO HOURS BUT STILL FEEL ENERGEIZED )
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. ( IM WITH CHARLIE AND JACK FROM LOST AND ANDYRODDICK (: )
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend or crush in the past. (definition of my move = talk? :D )
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. ( HAHAHAAH. YA I SO LOVE IT )
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment. (cause i just ate maggie mee and chachaos as supper (: and rachelkwan called me a pig ): )
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job. (I WORK IN SCHOOL :D)
I am comfortable with who I am now. ( cause i can run (: )
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge. ( i call bridge jetty :D )
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. ( O LEVELS (: )
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at MacDonald's restaurant. ( HAHAHA. THIS IS NOT TRUE, BUT I THINK ITS FUNNY T WNT T WORK THERE )
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the wrong people.
I adore bright colours. ( YELLOW'S THE WORD :D )
I can't live without black eyeliner. ( I LIVE WITH YELLOW EYELINER (: )
I don't know why the hell I just did this thing.
I usually like covers more than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongues in waves, much like a snakes slithers.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distraction.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. ( I HATE COFFEE )
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. ( CAN I ADD THE WORD, STYLE AT THE BACK? :D CAUSE IT ISNT POSSIBLE T FIND SOMEONE WITH THE SAME SEX STYLE, DIFF PPL HAVE DIFF STYLE. HAHAHA. THTS DISGUSTING. )
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I have ridden an elephant.
I love chocolates and crowns! ( wht is crowns? )
I go to school not for the sake of lessons.
I can't ride a bicycle.
I think i'm the only person crazy enough to do this at 6 in the morning without any sleep for the night.
I feel crazy.
I love tomatoes.
I like peanut butter on bananas.
Been told "You're on fire!" ( whts on fire? ive been told im on ice :D )
I was a netballer. ( IM A BASKETBALLER (: )
I believe in erendipity. ( serendipity or wht? )
I think the word 'RASPBERRY' is sexaaay.
I love to look at people's teeth.
I don't wanna grow up.
I can cross my eyes n stick out my tongue n still look cute.
Gaining weight is a wonderful thing.
I am a pro. ( I AM A PRO AT NOT BEING ABLE T MOVE MY EARS :D )
I love listening to gossip.
I really should be studying for exams now.
I totally love cheezels.
I can eat as much as a guy.
I dig my ears.
I love to keep things to myself.
mine ;
I hate taking initiatives and i find it weird if i ever does it (:

2006-04-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

one more trip down to the lost & found, to find your heart tht the quarterback punk dropped on the ground. but you were not the same. & someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay.

watch this (: trust me, its worth watching. the street fusion are really cool :D anyway i cant seem t upload two of the basketball matches videos ): oh well, i guess no one even wnts t watch any of our matches when we didnt even get into the semifinals? HAHA.

ANYWAY I COMPLETED MY CHINESE HOMEWORK, BOTH SIDES SOMEMORE :D TELL ME IM MORE HARDWORKING THAN RACHELKWAN WHO ONLY DID ONE SIDE. AND IVE DECIDED T COME ONLINE ONLY TWICE A WEEK (EXCLUDING THIS WEEK), IF NOT ILL OWE RACHELKWAN A DRINK :D

ive napha / chinese listening today, 2.4km run / physics test / geog mcq test tmr and chinese oral on thursday. im feeling really scared for my oral, i have this feeling ill screw it up ):

eleven more days t english and ss papers ):
seventeen more days t midyears ):
forty two more days t chinese o levels ):

just when i thought i was getting strong, i stumbled again. i can pretend and deny tht this whole thing is not affecting me. but t hold it aside, its killing me.

2006-04-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

So we stole and drank champagne. On the seventh seal you said you never feel pain, "I never feel pain, won't you hit me again?"

HOLLAAAAAABACK (:

so we got the vip tickets. and its the best ticket you ever wnt though the ppl werent as high ): anyway we were brought to a super high class reception before the concert! there were brownies, other food and even a bartender! after indulging in the food, we saw five man in suits walking into the room. YES, IT WAS THE CLICKFIVE! OMG, DO YOU KNW HOW COOL THT WAS? IT WAS LIKE UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL!? (:

we played the stand-and-wait game. and joey was the first who exchanged a conversation with us. the best part was when eric approached us! he is super friendly and funny! we talked bout almost everything (including asking which hotel they are currently staying at). addie and i even played the hitting-the-hand game with him. and i was shivering when i placed my palm on his :D

anyway sc is the champion for under17 while street fusion is the champion for above17. i love sc. they're just fantastic! chara was playing the trumpet and i just realized tht meiyi performed too! i love sc's cheer! 'JUST STAND OUT, OH OHH, JUST STAND OUT ' :D and i saw many ppl including (: now im having a sore throat from all the shouting ): click here , here and here :D

im cupping for lit now, but my eyes cant take it ):
seye gnideelb gnivah mi

so they say you're a trouble because you like to destroy. you are the word, the word is 'destroy'. i break this bottle, i think of you fondly.

2006-04-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

& if i lived a thousand years, you know i never could explain the way i lost my heart to you that day.

TODAY IS THE THIRTEENTH (:

so i ran 2.4km yesterday during pe in 10mins plus, somehow i doubt the timing. but i really hope my napha next week can be the same ): anyway we had physics practical today and i hate it! the fans were off, the windows were hardly open and miss ng had her own personal fan switched on in front for herself! so i was perspiring real badly. and i think rachelkwan is very evil. she ~~and i~~ went t hid some of the equipments before we left :D

i think im going t get abs soon, from laughing with prema and teresa in town! they are like super lame and i cant take it! we were like laughing at almost everything and anything! the worst part was, teresa thought we cant eat old chang kee food in taka! HAHAHAHAH.

and she saw this pink adidas shoe tht she took a liking for cause of its SMOOTH material, it really suits her if she wears it for cny celebration next year! HAHA. i saw this damn nice nike yellow cap. im going t resist buying it cause i always buy caps and not wear them. and teresa suck. look wht she said bout me in her blog 'camel damn gian beng can.she eat eat eat eat eat.see smth, buy, den eat eat eat.smell smth, buy, den eat eat eat.'

i keep the memories of you and me, inside says:
And I wanna be a housewife! I wanna cook for my husband ((: make him feel damn loved and fortunate
HAHAHAHAHAHA
-
i keep the memories of you and me, inside says:
OKAY! GO AWAY YOU!
un lea sh ed ; one of them saves you from this the other steals you says:
shit , i thought you said go and die ): if not i can tell you something
i keep the memories of you and me, inside says:
TELL ME!
un lea sh ed ; one of them saves you from this the other steals you says:
tell me t go and die first
i keep the memories of you and me, inside says:
okay! GO AND DIE.
un lea sh ed ; one of them saves you from this the other steals you says:
-runs then die (:

omg, we have four tickets t the hollaback crew finals (: this means yolanda addie phebe and i can go! im going t support sc, part of it being tht two of the tickets are from a sc girl. and i was talking t rachelng yesterday, she kept bugging me t blog bout her. so uhh, just get over him cause we'll be here for you :D and this makes me wonder, why is it so easy t fall for someone, but so difficult t get over tht person? ): i found a new cute guy in lost, charlie (:

i feel damn unprepared for midyears, i havent been cupping for it ): so cliche, yet so unearthly. and i bet everyone are like geared up for it. so i need t start getting my piorities straight. but even so, i still need t find the drive t study and carry on ):

feeling blue, while im trying to forget the feeling that i miss you. even though our eyes met, on all the occasions you still looked away. im blinded by the light you shine, im blinded by you everytime, and i can feel your smile defeat me.

2006-04-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

I tried to fight the feeling, the feeling took me down. For your sake I will hide the real thing.

stop trying t make it seem like its all my fault when i didnt do anything. you dnt trust her, do you? if not why are you blaming me for everything tht has nothing t do with me.

WON YSUOL YLLAER GNILEEF MI TUB YRROS MI

2006-04-11T14:07:00.000+08:00

And Ill leave this life behind me, say it if its worth saving me

im listening t 'walking in the rain' now t suit the rain :D anyway ive got a mc, and i like the last sentence 'not valid for court attendance'. and my doctor gave me a very weird green and rubbery medicine. im currently squeezing it :D click here (:

im tired of cupping, and i wnt t play basketball now ):

Brash and hopeful that my luck will not perish tonight. When the overcast tries to kill me, its your slow motion breathing that falls warm on my neck that keeps me alive.

2006-04-10T12:33:00.000+08:00

your voice is heaven but it hurts
your words are memories but they burn.

i wnt t be a chemist when i grow up (: pouring chemicals into test tubes, burn chemicals, experiment on diff chemicals. and as i watch myself fail many times on a particular research, i wont give up cause i knw once i succeed ill earn big! HAHA. you knw wht i like the best bout chemist, their laboratory can blow up anytime (:

have you ever wondered why i like the number thirteen? (: well there's nothing much t it, except tht its one of the two senior basketballers from another school tht i idolize number. and my sister got them t write a birthday letter t me as my birthday present on my fourteen birthday! HAHAHA. i still have the letters :D

anyway i bet with siyi and christine bout today's manutd vs arsenal match. i bet 2-1/1-0, while siyi and christine bet 2-0. and i think im not cupping enough ):

i went running today, and i feel so much fitter than yesterday (:

All this time while im true to you, you turned and looked away. There just wasnt any signs that says youre just passing through.

2006-04-09T18:57:00.000+08:00

In a confident fashion I will admit my deepest and darkest to her And every gaze across the table will send my unsuspecting body into shock

i watched a little of the andone two on two at ngee ann city, and it reminded me of the participate at the nike five on five in 2004 with syeila yin qianling and lixian. and i couldnt see ________ though i spotted so many other ppl ):

so the career fair was quite insightful. and we were so kiasu, we hopped around each and every booth (except rp and ite) and grabbed as many brochures. and the queerest thing tht could ever happen t me, is tht ive decided on the combination and courses i would take if i were t go jc or poly. but ive not decided which t go, jc or poly. and i regretted not taking triple science ):

so my sister will not wnt me t go sa or ac but vj, and so almost everyone will wnt t go sa or ac. im so confused. one minute i think jc is the right choice, then the next i find myself sitting on the fence cause of a good point of poly, and it just goes on. i think im going t shut my ears, but then again i better not. I MEAN HOW T EVEN SHUT YOUR EARS? %*#^$(@#$&*$ oh i dnt swear or curse like those ppl mentioned in the newspaper.

why jc?
; i get t wear school uniform (:
; since i dnt knw wht t do with my life and i have short interest span, this gives me the chance t keep my options open
; i get a higher chance of going university, instead of fighting for the top TEN percent!
why poly?
; if i fail my a levels, im dead. and at least poly gives me a diploma so i can start earning BIG (:
; i prefer practical work t reading letters and spaces all day

NEVERMIND, JUST HEAR MY FUTURE PLAN (:
jc ; ~~rjc~~ / vjc / acjc / ajc / sajc
poly ; sp / np
jc ; H2 chemistry / H2 physics / H2 mathematics / H1 econs or geography
poly ; chemical engineering / biomedical science / biotechnology / microelectronics / electronics / tourism and resort management

three more days t international friendship day. and this will be the first time me and jesslyn get t be audience for the house skits :D i cant wait for friday, good friday. and do you knw, next year's good friday will be on the friday of thirteenth! we predict an attack, a terrorist attack :D

i forgot how your voice sounds

2006-04-08T12:43:00.000+08:00

we're in a spell that never ends
the empty hourglass wore me thin

i heard the most disgusting thing in the morning from teresa. 'i can only see her hands .... the skirt' okay you dnt need t knw, cause im very disgusted by it.

and i think i have t change my handwriting ): cause mdm suhana wrote 'please write clearly' in four english papers of mine alrdy and she lectured me bout my 'g' today! i hate writing the letter, g. someone teach me! so i was looking for simin's condo online for her party for fun, then i chanced upon mine! HAHAA.

ZIPADEEDOODAHHHH (: says:
can you imagine. an ahbeng walks up to you then he goes, 'eh. i ah beng. i crush you.'
un lea sh ed ; and one day when i d iii e e you can have whts le f t of me ` says:
then i ah lian, i hahax you (hahax = hughug).

and we went t tag this lian's blog! HAHAHAHA. (part of the tags)
yourfriend : can eus all stop taggin her blog, people like type like that eu not happy ahs
xiiao`liannx : yarhs, i agree wif yourfriend! she very poor tingx oreadi! dunchh disturb her euu bad pplez!
LOL : to yourfriend: you go learn english too! all you ah lian people. ALL THE SAME ONE. type until like that.

OMG, ARE WE BORED OR WHT. AND SIYI CAN REALLY BE A POTENTIAL LIAN! eventually we typed in proper english and went t scold those who spammed her blog. we're helping the lian in her tagboard, yet here we are laughing at them.

THERE'S CAREER FAIR TMR ): EGGS (my new EHH), SO TELL ME WHERE SHOULD I GO. JC OR POLY? POLY OR JC? AND MY EYES ARE DAMN PAIN FROM LOOKING AT THE CONDOS ONLINE. ITS LIKE GOING T BLEED ANY MOMENT SOON (:

AND I BADLY WNT THE HOLLABACK TICKETS ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

SOMEONE CALL IN AND HELP ME WIN THE TICKETS, SOMEONE ACCOMPANY ME T ROB CARRIE CHEONG TMR, SOMEONE SOMETHING SOMETHING. IM SPEECHLESS, IM LOOOOST FOR WORDS. AND I WNT JACK FROM LOST (:

ps - this entry is not emo (:

So i walked under a bus, i got hit by a train. keep falling in love, which is kind of the same.